Hey everyone,
I'm new to this forum and have been reading for months, but finally decided to create an account as I need to talk to other people who are in the same boat, who isn't just my Partner!
Quick intro to my relationship, I am 24F from the UK in a relationship with my partner 22M in the USA. We met last September at a concert when I was visiting friends in the states, we started talking on twitter, then private message, skype, text etc. and now we have been a couple for a year last week.
I have visited him twice this year, in May for my birthday and again in September just gone, and in total we have spent around 4 weeks with each other in person.
We are very much in love and have spoken about our future, marriage, closing the distance, he has a daughter so I would have to move to him if things head that way.
My problem is that since I came back in September I feel like I am running on empty, those two weeks I spent with him went so slowly and it felt like I was with him for so long. His family were so welcoming and I felt at home and completely comfortable. But now that I am back in the UK I feel like nothing I do is of importance, I have lost interest in my job and I am just working each day to get it out of the way. I need my job because it pays well enough that I can afford to visit him as often as I have done, and I have no plans on leaving don't get me wrong. I guess I can only describe myself as feeling in limbo and I don't feel at home in my own house, I don't care for my belongings and I have lost interest in certain friends who aren't there for me/supportive of how I'm feeling. I'd just like to add that I don't feel depressed... I am not locking myself away and shutting myself off, I just feel like I am going through the motions of every day life.
I know my partner is planning on proposing in the future, but when and how he has not said, he has only hinted. So until that happens the dream of a future with him is what gets me by, saving my money each month, and making goals for us to aim for.
Does anyone else get this 'empty' feeling when they have come back from a visit?
I'm sure some of you do, I just need some reassurance I guess.
I'm new to this forum and have been reading for months, but finally decided to create an account as I need to talk to other people who are in the same boat, who isn't just my Partner!
Quick intro to my relationship, I am 24F from the UK in a relationship with my partner 22M in the USA. We met last September at a concert when I was visiting friends in the states, we started talking on twitter, then private message, skype, text etc. and now we have been a couple for a year last week.
I have visited him twice this year, in May for my birthday and again in September just gone, and in total we have spent around 4 weeks with each other in person.
We are very much in love and have spoken about our future, marriage, closing the distance, he has a daughter so I would have to move to him if things head that way.
My problem is that since I came back in September I feel like I am running on empty, those two weeks I spent with him went so slowly and it felt like I was with him for so long. His family were so welcoming and I felt at home and completely comfortable. But now that I am back in the UK I feel like nothing I do is of importance, I have lost interest in my job and I am just working each day to get it out of the way. I need my job because it pays well enough that I can afford to visit him as often as I have done, and I have no plans on leaving don't get me wrong. I guess I can only describe myself as feeling in limbo and I don't feel at home in my own house, I don't care for my belongings and I have lost interest in certain friends who aren't there for me/supportive of how I'm feeling. I'd just like to add that I don't feel depressed... I am not locking myself away and shutting myself off, I just feel like I am going through the motions of every day life.
I know my partner is planning on proposing in the future, but when and how he has not said, he has only hinted. So until that happens the dream of a future with him is what gets me by, saving my money each month, and making goals for us to aim for.
Does anyone else get this 'empty' feeling when they have come back from a visit?
I'm sure some of you do, I just need some reassurance I guess.
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