I always hate asking people for relationship advice because it's difficult for people to really understand a long distance relationship. It's very different then you typical relationship. So I'll give some background of my relationship..
My boyfriend lives in the UK and I live near Chicago. I messaged him 2 years ago in July on Facebook because I found his comment on a page hilarious. We talked occasionally and then it slowly started to progress. By December the conversation became a bit different and we began to habe feelings for one another. He then came for a visit last year in April. We had an amazing time. He also came in September, December and just left last week. So he has been here 4 times and I have gone to England once this last April. It's basically drained our bank accounts. I just graduated nursing school and will be taking my test soon though so we can save up. He said he wants to start the visa process for him to move here.
The issue with the relationship is that I have a lot of insecurities. Last November he admitted to cheating on me. It was the worst news of my life. I really struggled with it. Not only that, he told me that was braking it off with her but he didn't and it got a bit messy for a while. So it was honesty but then more lies. I have recovered form it and even forgive him but I can't trust him. People make mistakes though and I understand this. It is very difficult when you are long distance and have nobody. If I was given the opportunity to spend time with a guy I don't know if I would refuse.
Because I have this trust issue though things have gotten worse over the last 2 months. I become depressed and feel sad and accuse him. We fight often and it's unfair to both of us. When he came for a visit we don't fight at all though and it's not because we are ignoring our issues but because we love spending time together. He has become very busy with work latley and his life and a lot of times I feel forgotten about. I feel sad if he goes out drinking and I don't hear form him for a while. Then we argue. How do you get past this???? I even go to counseling for it and it really dosnt help. I read see help books and that dosnt help. I guess I want the relationship to work because we are so compatable but feel as if my emotions are really getting in the way.
My boyfriend lives in the UK and I live near Chicago. I messaged him 2 years ago in July on Facebook because I found his comment on a page hilarious. We talked occasionally and then it slowly started to progress. By December the conversation became a bit different and we began to habe feelings for one another. He then came for a visit last year in April. We had an amazing time. He also came in September, December and just left last week. So he has been here 4 times and I have gone to England once this last April. It's basically drained our bank accounts. I just graduated nursing school and will be taking my test soon though so we can save up. He said he wants to start the visa process for him to move here.
The issue with the relationship is that I have a lot of insecurities. Last November he admitted to cheating on me. It was the worst news of my life. I really struggled with it. Not only that, he told me that was braking it off with her but he didn't and it got a bit messy for a while. So it was honesty but then more lies. I have recovered form it and even forgive him but I can't trust him. People make mistakes though and I understand this. It is very difficult when you are long distance and have nobody. If I was given the opportunity to spend time with a guy I don't know if I would refuse.
Because I have this trust issue though things have gotten worse over the last 2 months. I become depressed and feel sad and accuse him. We fight often and it's unfair to both of us. When he came for a visit we don't fight at all though and it's not because we are ignoring our issues but because we love spending time together. He has become very busy with work latley and his life and a lot of times I feel forgotten about. I feel sad if he goes out drinking and I don't hear form him for a while. Then we argue. How do you get past this???? I even go to counseling for it and it really dosnt help. I read see help books and that dosnt help. I guess I want the relationship to work because we are so compatable but feel as if my emotions are really getting in the way.
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