We had a misunderstanding over some stupid article he sent me. We typed over each other and looking back you can see that we were just on totally different threads of thought, not communicating. I had to leave and told him so, and returned an hour later to silence.
I went about my day, and saw nothing from him. I apologized for my side of things because I could see that I had gotten defensive and touchy. I was slow to apologize because I really am starting to feel like I always apologize? He never really acknowledges where he could have improved. He says "ok" and then acts like everything is back to normal. Not "ok, I forgive you," or "Ok, I'm sorry too, i could have done x better as well." just "ok."
No response. I went about the rest of the day with a knot in my stomach, went to bed, woke up to nothing.
I sent one more message, but I don't want him to open his inbox to me just slowly losing my shit over a series of messages, in case he really is just super busy. So that's it.
He's online, posted some stuff to his page, but hasn't read any of my messages since our disagreement.
The clingy insecure attachment style in me feels like he ghosted me at the first sign that things weren't all rosy and heart emojis, that he got bored.
The grown ass woman in me reminds me that if that were really the case, he wouldn't be an ideal match anyway, and that he can be avoidant and probably just buried his head in work to cool off and then got on a roll...for a whole 24 hours...
Just trying to keep myself sane over here.
I went about my day, and saw nothing from him. I apologized for my side of things because I could see that I had gotten defensive and touchy. I was slow to apologize because I really am starting to feel like I always apologize? He never really acknowledges where he could have improved. He says "ok" and then acts like everything is back to normal. Not "ok, I forgive you," or "Ok, I'm sorry too, i could have done x better as well." just "ok."
No response. I went about the rest of the day with a knot in my stomach, went to bed, woke up to nothing.
I sent one more message, but I don't want him to open his inbox to me just slowly losing my shit over a series of messages, in case he really is just super busy. So that's it.
He's online, posted some stuff to his page, but hasn't read any of my messages since our disagreement.
The clingy insecure attachment style in me feels like he ghosted me at the first sign that things weren't all rosy and heart emojis, that he got bored.
The grown ass woman in me reminds me that if that were really the case, he wouldn't be an ideal match anyway, and that he can be avoidant and probably just buried his head in work to cool off and then got on a roll...for a whole 24 hours...
Just trying to keep myself sane over here.
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