I met my boyfriend in Japan when I traveled there in October. It was love at first sight and I spent five amazing weeks with him! I had to go back home to Canada though, and it has been a month since I have seen him. The first few weeks were fine, but about a week and a half ago I began having so many random doubts and worries. Questions began running through my mind and I doubted if I even loved him. Suddenly his texts and picture messages didn't cheer me up anymore. I felt horrible because I know in my heart I love him, but everything just felt different. A few days ago though I felt good as new and questioned why I was having doubts. But today I feel horrible again, every time I text him I feel like I am somehow lying about my feelings. I hate this feeling and I was wondering if it's normal to feel this disconnection while in a long distance relationship. It should be noted I have been in an LDR before and experienced these same feelings, it's like my brain wants to ruin my happiness. I know that I love him and that's why I'm trying to seek help so I don't feel this way, I want to be with this man. I just feel like it's a fight in my head 24/7, it has gotten so bad that I have even started to see a therapist.
I need help. Please go easy on me.
I need help. Please go easy on me.
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