I only post over in the international area but thought perhaps I could get a different perspective from someone who's in a military LDR. Back story here is, I met my SO online 9 months ago, have been in a LDR for 5 and we have yet to see each other, although the plan for the last few months has been him coming to see me in June.
Leaving out some details here but, my SO has is now all of sudden worried about us having anything long term. He's always been the optimistic one, so it's very unusual to hear him tell me that he's scared that this will all be for nothing. He was at one point in the British army, until he got hurt in training and was forced to leave. He never really expressed a real interest in re-joining, but I always assumed there was a possibility that he would want to try to go back. And I knew what that would entail, being with someone who is in the military isn't easy. I don't have any prior experience with it, but I know that it comes with a lot of sacrifice. He is worried what will happen if he re-joins, he told me he's "not sure he can do this again", he was in a relationship (long distance) that failed because apparently she wasn't very faithful, and a liar.
I've done all that I can to convince him that I know what I am taking on. That I am not looking at this through rose colored glasses. Personally, the military life doesn't scare me as much as losing him does. And while I feel that his concerns are valid, the fact that I'm here, and have been here for all this time..that I still love him and willing to stand by him and support his decision to go back (which realistically probably won't happen for at least another year if not longer)..should be enough for him.
I feel like I'm losing him to fear and I am desperately trying to stop this before it's too late.
Leaving out some details here but, my SO has is now all of sudden worried about us having anything long term. He's always been the optimistic one, so it's very unusual to hear him tell me that he's scared that this will all be for nothing. He was at one point in the British army, until he got hurt in training and was forced to leave. He never really expressed a real interest in re-joining, but I always assumed there was a possibility that he would want to try to go back. And I knew what that would entail, being with someone who is in the military isn't easy. I don't have any prior experience with it, but I know that it comes with a lot of sacrifice. He is worried what will happen if he re-joins, he told me he's "not sure he can do this again", he was in a relationship (long distance) that failed because apparently she wasn't very faithful, and a liar.
I've done all that I can to convince him that I know what I am taking on. That I am not looking at this through rose colored glasses. Personally, the military life doesn't scare me as much as losing him does. And while I feel that his concerns are valid, the fact that I'm here, and have been here for all this time..that I still love him and willing to stand by him and support his decision to go back (which realistically probably won't happen for at least another year if not longer)..should be enough for him.
I feel like I'm losing him to fear and I am desperately trying to stop this before it's too late.
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