Hello all!
So the past month and a half I have been in a situation that is 100% new to me. My boyfriend of almost 3 years (our anniversary is in December), decided he wants to join the Marine Corps. This came very suddenly and with no warning. He had been going to a junior college for a year or so when he calls me (I'm at UC Santa Barbara and he is at Palomar-in San Marcos, CA) and tells me he wants to join the military. Now I am NOT someone who will tell him that he can't do that, even though I really didn't want him to, because even though we are together and we plan to stay together, we still want each other to do everything they want to in life. This is why our relationship worked when I left to go to Santa Barbara. Of course, I told him how I felt, that I wasn't happy about it because it means even LESS time being spent with him, but if this is what he wants in life I will support him and wait for him.
Thankfully, he only wants to join the Reserves. I honestly know I could NOT live the moving every four years and not knowing when I would see him again life. And I have a deep respect for those who can. But at this time he is still only a Poolee and a lot of aspects about his future- and therefore mine- are up in the air. I do know he is going into intelligence which means he will be shipped off to Virginia at some point in time for at least 5 months. He is also taking the DLAB and if he does well on that he will be sent to Monterey Bay for over a year!
Now, I am a person who needs structure and a plan. In high school, I was the kid that had a different plan for each college I applied to. In college, I already have all of my courses planned out for my entire 4 years and I even know what graduate schools I am applying to. But here, I am at a loss. My boyfriend doesn't know anything that happens past his ten days after bootcamp. I am going crazyyy! I took extra units next quarter just to keep busy because I know I won't be able to talk to him at all. I am trying to stay positive and think about when its all over and he's back in college closer to me and we can see each other often, but its so far away and this process is so emotionally taxing. I don't even know if i can afford a plane ticket to see him in Virginia, nevertheless afford a graduate education. I don't really know what I wanted to gain from posting this other than to express my concerns. I know many have it way worse, but knowing that doesn't exactly make this any easier. I know I'll be able to deal with this better when he knows exactly where he's going and for how long, but until then, I'm kind of falling apart and it doesn't really help that I know my father's been waiting for the relationship to crash and burn.
There's the other issue- my father. We aren't particularly close, but he is a man that has an opinion on EVERYTHING and he is not afraid to tell me EXACTLY how he feels about something. For example, when I started dating my boyfriend, he had zero hesitation when telling me everything he didn't like about him. Or that he felt that my having a career as 'intense' as mine will be (pharmaceutical research) will interfere with my rearing a child in the future. I just don't want to tell him about my boyfriends change of plans because I know I will get an earfull of 'its probably in your best interest to end it' and 'what kind of career will he have afterwords'. I know he needs to know, but I am having a hard time figuring out hwen to tell him, or if its better that my boyfriend tell him or both of us together?
Thanks for reading, if you did. And if you have any little tid-bits of advice, I would very much appreciate it!!
So the past month and a half I have been in a situation that is 100% new to me. My boyfriend of almost 3 years (our anniversary is in December), decided he wants to join the Marine Corps. This came very suddenly and with no warning. He had been going to a junior college for a year or so when he calls me (I'm at UC Santa Barbara and he is at Palomar-in San Marcos, CA) and tells me he wants to join the military. Now I am NOT someone who will tell him that he can't do that, even though I really didn't want him to, because even though we are together and we plan to stay together, we still want each other to do everything they want to in life. This is why our relationship worked when I left to go to Santa Barbara. Of course, I told him how I felt, that I wasn't happy about it because it means even LESS time being spent with him, but if this is what he wants in life I will support him and wait for him.
Thankfully, he only wants to join the Reserves. I honestly know I could NOT live the moving every four years and not knowing when I would see him again life. And I have a deep respect for those who can. But at this time he is still only a Poolee and a lot of aspects about his future- and therefore mine- are up in the air. I do know he is going into intelligence which means he will be shipped off to Virginia at some point in time for at least 5 months. He is also taking the DLAB and if he does well on that he will be sent to Monterey Bay for over a year!
Now, I am a person who needs structure and a plan. In high school, I was the kid that had a different plan for each college I applied to. In college, I already have all of my courses planned out for my entire 4 years and I even know what graduate schools I am applying to. But here, I am at a loss. My boyfriend doesn't know anything that happens past his ten days after bootcamp. I am going crazyyy! I took extra units next quarter just to keep busy because I know I won't be able to talk to him at all. I am trying to stay positive and think about when its all over and he's back in college closer to me and we can see each other often, but its so far away and this process is so emotionally taxing. I don't even know if i can afford a plane ticket to see him in Virginia, nevertheless afford a graduate education. I don't really know what I wanted to gain from posting this other than to express my concerns. I know many have it way worse, but knowing that doesn't exactly make this any easier. I know I'll be able to deal with this better when he knows exactly where he's going and for how long, but until then, I'm kind of falling apart and it doesn't really help that I know my father's been waiting for the relationship to crash and burn.
There's the other issue- my father. We aren't particularly close, but he is a man that has an opinion on EVERYTHING and he is not afraid to tell me EXACTLY how he feels about something. For example, when I started dating my boyfriend, he had zero hesitation when telling me everything he didn't like about him. Or that he felt that my having a career as 'intense' as mine will be (pharmaceutical research) will interfere with my rearing a child in the future. I just don't want to tell him about my boyfriends change of plans because I know I will get an earfull of 'its probably in your best interest to end it' and 'what kind of career will he have afterwords'. I know he needs to know, but I am having a hard time figuring out hwen to tell him, or if its better that my boyfriend tell him or both of us together?
Thanks for reading, if you did. And if you have any little tid-bits of advice, I would very much appreciate it!!
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