First meeting!! >v<
Hehe, I'm so happy~
I finally met my SO in person and though I planned to record the first meeting, here's a bit of a story to explain to you why I actually didn't do it in the end.
I live in Macau but his flight goes over to Hong Kong so I went to the airport there to get him. I was a nervous wreck and anxious, which I think would be common when first meeting someone so important. On top of that I was stressed out because the flight had arrived early (I was there an hour earlier) and I had forgotten that there were two arriving halls, making me worry that we would miss each other. The calls weren't working very well (even though I knew he had arrived) so I kept walking back and forth between halls, until I started to get cramps and I reluctantly took a seat a few ways from the halls but on the way to one of the main exits. When I got contacted by him, I told him about my pain and reference points so he would see me. Thankfully I usually stand out with my style, but one can never be too sure. I was soooo awkward when I finally saw him. He had told me the way he was dressed but a lot of men were dressed like that and when I finally saw his face, I immediately recognized him. Now, people who know me know that I can be very shy and awkward when I first meet someone, and because I had terrible cramps, I couldn't stand up, so I waved my arm in hopes of catching his attention. When he saw me, he put on such a big gentle smile and walked over while I was making a weird shy smile and looking down when he approached. Because I was shy and awkward, there was a moment of silence before he extended his hand out in a handshake and I stared at it before taking it, introducing myself with him and laughing together. It was silly since we both knew each other pretty well but it was a sweet ice breaker.
The following week of his stay went very well since I grew comfortable at the end of his first day here and sleeping and cuddling on the same bed felt better than I expected (I would always turn away from the other person). I introduced him to both Portuguese and Chinese food, walked along the beach, went for walks with my dog, window-shopped together... it was fun, loving and enjoyable time. <3 It's definitely so nice to see your SO in person because it makes things so much more real, and we were able to talk about our future and look forward to it. I couldn't be more grateful for my SO because he is a very sweet and caring guy, accepts my weird sides and supports my dreams too. Because I'm also hot-tempered, his pacifist personality is something that sometimes calms me and we pretty much balance ourselves out.
The only thing that didn't go so well was introducing him to my dad. My dad is pretty strict and I don't really have a good relationship with him but despite my parents being divorced, my father imposes his presence in my life and I go along with it to allow peace between us and because I await the time where I don't have to live in the same city he does (even before I met my SO I didn't plan to leave close to my dad). I've had other romantic relationships in the past, but this was the first time I introduced one to my dad. My dad faked the good reactions during lunch and was pretty much tense and quiet. While my SO was still around, I received a very long message from my dad, saying how upset he was with me, that he could not accept my relationship, that I should get together with someone from my "culture", that it was not the future he planned for his daughter and how I humiliated him. A lot of people have told me through my life, not to listen to my dad's words, but he says stuff that get to me because he knows what hurts me and I was pretty sad. Thankfully, my SO was there to get my mind off of it and bring a smile back to my face, but I will be meeting my dad on Thursday of this week (tomorrow) and I am honestly worried. Because of my past with my dad, things could get pretty ugly.
But bad things aside (this might be too much in a single topic), I was so happy to have met my SO and we were both very glad that we decided to meet before October, which was our initial plan. October is the next date we're looking at, and if everything goes well, I will be going to Chicago to see him again, but I can only know maybe in a couple of months.
Thank you for reading and it makes me so grateful to have a place here where I can talk about these stuff. ^^
I finally met my SO in person and though I planned to record the first meeting, here's a bit of a story to explain to you why I actually didn't do it in the end.
I live in Macau but his flight goes over to Hong Kong so I went to the airport there to get him. I was a nervous wreck and anxious, which I think would be common when first meeting someone so important. On top of that I was stressed out because the flight had arrived early (I was there an hour earlier) and I had forgotten that there were two arriving halls, making me worry that we would miss each other. The calls weren't working very well (even though I knew he had arrived) so I kept walking back and forth between halls, until I started to get cramps and I reluctantly took a seat a few ways from the halls but on the way to one of the main exits. When I got contacted by him, I told him about my pain and reference points so he would see me. Thankfully I usually stand out with my style, but one can never be too sure. I was soooo awkward when I finally saw him. He had told me the way he was dressed but a lot of men were dressed like that and when I finally saw his face, I immediately recognized him. Now, people who know me know that I can be very shy and awkward when I first meet someone, and because I had terrible cramps, I couldn't stand up, so I waved my arm in hopes of catching his attention. When he saw me, he put on such a big gentle smile and walked over while I was making a weird shy smile and looking down when he approached. Because I was shy and awkward, there was a moment of silence before he extended his hand out in a handshake and I stared at it before taking it, introducing myself with him and laughing together. It was silly since we both knew each other pretty well but it was a sweet ice breaker.
The following week of his stay went very well since I grew comfortable at the end of his first day here and sleeping and cuddling on the same bed felt better than I expected (I would always turn away from the other person). I introduced him to both Portuguese and Chinese food, walked along the beach, went for walks with my dog, window-shopped together... it was fun, loving and enjoyable time. <3 It's definitely so nice to see your SO in person because it makes things so much more real, and we were able to talk about our future and look forward to it. I couldn't be more grateful for my SO because he is a very sweet and caring guy, accepts my weird sides and supports my dreams too. Because I'm also hot-tempered, his pacifist personality is something that sometimes calms me and we pretty much balance ourselves out.
The only thing that didn't go so well was introducing him to my dad. My dad is pretty strict and I don't really have a good relationship with him but despite my parents being divorced, my father imposes his presence in my life and I go along with it to allow peace between us and because I await the time where I don't have to live in the same city he does (even before I met my SO I didn't plan to leave close to my dad). I've had other romantic relationships in the past, but this was the first time I introduced one to my dad. My dad faked the good reactions during lunch and was pretty much tense and quiet. While my SO was still around, I received a very long message from my dad, saying how upset he was with me, that he could not accept my relationship, that I should get together with someone from my "culture", that it was not the future he planned for his daughter and how I humiliated him. A lot of people have told me through my life, not to listen to my dad's words, but he says stuff that get to me because he knows what hurts me and I was pretty sad. Thankfully, my SO was there to get my mind off of it and bring a smile back to my face, but I will be meeting my dad on Thursday of this week (tomorrow) and I am honestly worried. Because of my past with my dad, things could get pretty ugly.
But bad things aside (this might be too much in a single topic), I was so happy to have met my SO and we were both very glad that we decided to meet before October, which was our initial plan. October is the next date we're looking at, and if everything goes well, I will be going to Chicago to see him again, but I can only know maybe in a couple of months.
Thank you for reading and it makes me so grateful to have a place here where I can talk about these stuff. ^^
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