Hello everybody,
This is a really special situation im planning to do and I want you guys to first understand our relationship and share your opinions with me please. It's my first ever relationship in general and i choose long distance relationship for the first one.
I'm in a long distance relationship for 6 months already. We met through a game and I started questioning her all types of stuff, eventually i got closer to know her and we both figured we have a lot in common. I was the one who fell in love with her and i asked her if she wanted to do a long distance relationship with me. She said yes, but she thought this was just a joke and something to just try out. Which I thought the same at the beginning. After a week though I really fell in love with her and I started to try and communicate with her much more. She didn't feel anything at that time. So obviously we smart talked and all that saying "I love you" even though she didn't even mean it. When I told her that i was looking for plane tickets during the first month she realised i really meant it. Time flew by us and she started to not respond, ignore me, play with her friends and just the usual stuff when you dont love somebody at some point. Thats when I really got tired of it, I was heartbroken and always so depressed because of that, I wanted her to feel the same way and finally realise how much i love her, I wrote a really really strong and cruel message of how much i love her and how she is towards me. She colapsed, she cried for 4 days and was so put down, I tried to talk with her but she avoided me and if she talked to me she would instantly start crying. I apologised 4 days after and asked for a second chance, I pushed her to love me which was really wrong of me, she forgived me and gave me a second chance. That's when she started loving me, she created feelings for me and cared more about me than in the past.
We shared pictures of ourselves and eventually videos. The thing is she is still somewhat shy and sceptical, she's not ready to facetime, nor send me videos of her with her face on it. She would cut out her face. I have only 2 videos of her in total, one where she tells me how much she loves me with her face cut out, and a snapchat video with her face on it. I'm already facetiming, sending videos and pictures while she is not, so i can make her feel more comfortable.
Weeks and months past and we had a decent anmount of really happy days, we enjoyed ourselves. But i wanted to talk more with her, literally everyday. So we made a challenge to talk atleast 10 minutes everyday and the loser has to do something. So we moved on with this challenge, everyday 10 minutes and we mostly extended to 1 or 2 hours. We slept a couple times through skype too, in total about 3 or 4 times which was really beautiful and enjoyable.
I asked her if she wanted to meet, she said she is not sure, she would wait 3 years before seeing each other which is insane. She told me she is affraid to miss me or lose me after that, she broke up with her boyfriend couple months ago too and she says she still needs to recover from that. She is just really shy and sceptical in my opinion because she really had feelings for me and we would always talk about the future what we would do and what we have to do when we meet.
BUT, today everything went down and we learly almost broke up. I was getting depressed yesterday again and send a negative message whining about how i am making everything worse again and all that. This hit her, she said if this continues like that, pushing each other and having challenges to stay connected to each other she wouldn't like to hold onto that.
Today we voice chatted crying and talking, she said she's trying her best but its not easy and im not understanding that she isnt able to do everything perfectly, and i found out she wanted to suicide when she broke up with her boyfriend. I literally couldn't handle that and colapsed emotionally, I said promise me to never do that again and now i cant continue through the internet because i dont want her to do that, I wanna make her happy and care for her, i want her to be my life partner.
Right now she says she doesn't feel anything, she lost the feelings and needs time to recover from her boyfriend. She feels like this relationship has no meaning mainly because she feels like she is abusing me to feel loved and doesnt want me to suffer from all of this while she thinks this wont work. She has bad thoughts and doubts about this relationship because of me and i told her i wanna go through this, i wanna find out where i will end, i wanna meet you.
I convinced her and she said she'll give it a try but she doesn't feel anything anymore. I told her she never met me, im not depressed at all in real life im a total normal person but this LDR is just making me like this. You wont see me change through the internet, you wont see me from all of my side in the internet, you wont be able to tell if this will work or not. You have to meet me in real life if you wanna find out.
I asked her once before what she would do if i was gonna fly over without her knowing and she said that would be pretty uncool from you but i would still accept you.
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Now that I found out about everything she has done, especially suicide. Knowing her she doesnt know what she wants, she is always confused and unaware of stuff, she doesnt wanna think about all of this because she is lazy. Everything she went through, I wanna make this up for her. She knows that im a loyal and really good person, she said that herself today, but she doesnt think she deserves me, i should find somebody else because she is trouble for me.
To make everything clear this was her last message "...sorry..
I cant do anything perfect...
and thats just hard for you to understand.
and you know what?, if its gonna be like this.. pushing..challenges to make us both be connected, maybe I dont wanna hold onto that. I fell like this is all for nothing..we laugh, smile, and most importantly we "love" but I dont feel that way, I dont feel like we have a great connecting anymore and thats why I have a few things to discus tomorrow. but for now I hope your depressed Iittle mind gets some rest ok?. goodnight.. discliper"
She has a negative perspective of this relationship now and thinks that we wont make this work but she'll still try. She expects us to meetup between 2-5 years. In my opinion she really needs me right now, she is really depressed she said and her boyfriend, the thoughts of him just make everything worse. She just needs someone by her side to love her and dont think about nothing for a while but focus on loving in real life.
THE SPECIAL MEETUP: My parents wouldn't let me as i know to fly to denmark because im 17 and they're sceptical, my father wont allow it at all. I wanna meet her this August and be with her 3 weeks. She said she has 3 weeks free on august. So i wanna collect the money really quickly and fly over to denmark without her knowing.
I dont know how she is gonna react though. We agreed i would stay at her home until i leave but what if she reacts scared towards me or sceptical? I wouldnt have nowhere to live, hotels are way too expensive.
I just really feel like this is the only thing that is going to save us, she really just needs a lover next to her right now and forget about everything for a moment, she is really confused.
I'd run away from home to fly to denmark this august. I wanna hear your opinions on that, is it gonna be safe ? Does she need me by her side ?
This is a really special situation im planning to do and I want you guys to first understand our relationship and share your opinions with me please. It's my first ever relationship in general and i choose long distance relationship for the first one.
I'm in a long distance relationship for 6 months already. We met through a game and I started questioning her all types of stuff, eventually i got closer to know her and we both figured we have a lot in common. I was the one who fell in love with her and i asked her if she wanted to do a long distance relationship with me. She said yes, but she thought this was just a joke and something to just try out. Which I thought the same at the beginning. After a week though I really fell in love with her and I started to try and communicate with her much more. She didn't feel anything at that time. So obviously we smart talked and all that saying "I love you" even though she didn't even mean it. When I told her that i was looking for plane tickets during the first month she realised i really meant it. Time flew by us and she started to not respond, ignore me, play with her friends and just the usual stuff when you dont love somebody at some point. Thats when I really got tired of it, I was heartbroken and always so depressed because of that, I wanted her to feel the same way and finally realise how much i love her, I wrote a really really strong and cruel message of how much i love her and how she is towards me. She colapsed, she cried for 4 days and was so put down, I tried to talk with her but she avoided me and if she talked to me she would instantly start crying. I apologised 4 days after and asked for a second chance, I pushed her to love me which was really wrong of me, she forgived me and gave me a second chance. That's when she started loving me, she created feelings for me and cared more about me than in the past.
We shared pictures of ourselves and eventually videos. The thing is she is still somewhat shy and sceptical, she's not ready to facetime, nor send me videos of her with her face on it. She would cut out her face. I have only 2 videos of her in total, one where she tells me how much she loves me with her face cut out, and a snapchat video with her face on it. I'm already facetiming, sending videos and pictures while she is not, so i can make her feel more comfortable.
Weeks and months past and we had a decent anmount of really happy days, we enjoyed ourselves. But i wanted to talk more with her, literally everyday. So we made a challenge to talk atleast 10 minutes everyday and the loser has to do something. So we moved on with this challenge, everyday 10 minutes and we mostly extended to 1 or 2 hours. We slept a couple times through skype too, in total about 3 or 4 times which was really beautiful and enjoyable.
I asked her if she wanted to meet, she said she is not sure, she would wait 3 years before seeing each other which is insane. She told me she is affraid to miss me or lose me after that, she broke up with her boyfriend couple months ago too and she says she still needs to recover from that. She is just really shy and sceptical in my opinion because she really had feelings for me and we would always talk about the future what we would do and what we have to do when we meet.
BUT, today everything went down and we learly almost broke up. I was getting depressed yesterday again and send a negative message whining about how i am making everything worse again and all that. This hit her, she said if this continues like that, pushing each other and having challenges to stay connected to each other she wouldn't like to hold onto that.
Today we voice chatted crying and talking, she said she's trying her best but its not easy and im not understanding that she isnt able to do everything perfectly, and i found out she wanted to suicide when she broke up with her boyfriend. I literally couldn't handle that and colapsed emotionally, I said promise me to never do that again and now i cant continue through the internet because i dont want her to do that, I wanna make her happy and care for her, i want her to be my life partner.
Right now she says she doesn't feel anything, she lost the feelings and needs time to recover from her boyfriend. She feels like this relationship has no meaning mainly because she feels like she is abusing me to feel loved and doesnt want me to suffer from all of this while she thinks this wont work. She has bad thoughts and doubts about this relationship because of me and i told her i wanna go through this, i wanna find out where i will end, i wanna meet you.
I convinced her and she said she'll give it a try but she doesn't feel anything anymore. I told her she never met me, im not depressed at all in real life im a total normal person but this LDR is just making me like this. You wont see me change through the internet, you wont see me from all of my side in the internet, you wont be able to tell if this will work or not. You have to meet me in real life if you wanna find out.
I asked her once before what she would do if i was gonna fly over without her knowing and she said that would be pretty uncool from you but i would still accept you.
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Now that I found out about everything she has done, especially suicide. Knowing her she doesnt know what she wants, she is always confused and unaware of stuff, she doesnt wanna think about all of this because she is lazy. Everything she went through, I wanna make this up for her. She knows that im a loyal and really good person, she said that herself today, but she doesnt think she deserves me, i should find somebody else because she is trouble for me.
To make everything clear this was her last message "...sorry..
I cant do anything perfect...
and thats just hard for you to understand.
and you know what?, if its gonna be like this.. pushing..challenges to make us both be connected, maybe I dont wanna hold onto that. I fell like this is all for nothing..we laugh, smile, and most importantly we "love" but I dont feel that way, I dont feel like we have a great connecting anymore and thats why I have a few things to discus tomorrow. but for now I hope your depressed Iittle mind gets some rest ok?. goodnight.. discliper"
She has a negative perspective of this relationship now and thinks that we wont make this work but she'll still try. She expects us to meetup between 2-5 years. In my opinion she really needs me right now, she is really depressed she said and her boyfriend, the thoughts of him just make everything worse. She just needs someone by her side to love her and dont think about nothing for a while but focus on loving in real life.
THE SPECIAL MEETUP: My parents wouldn't let me as i know to fly to denmark because im 17 and they're sceptical, my father wont allow it at all. I wanna meet her this August and be with her 3 weeks. She said she has 3 weeks free on august. So i wanna collect the money really quickly and fly over to denmark without her knowing.
I dont know how she is gonna react though. We agreed i would stay at her home until i leave but what if she reacts scared towards me or sceptical? I wouldnt have nowhere to live, hotels are way too expensive.
I just really feel like this is the only thing that is going to save us, she really just needs a lover next to her right now and forget about everything for a moment, she is really confused.
I'd run away from home to fly to denmark this august. I wanna hear your opinions on that, is it gonna be safe ? Does she need me by her side ?
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