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    We finally met in real life..Now I'm heartbroken

    I originally posted this as an update in a different thread. I felt perhaps I might get more advice if I repost as a new thread. I met my SO this past weekend for the first time. And here is how I feel only two days since I've returned home:

    Hello all,
    Well the first meeting happened and I'm so sorry to say that I am as heartbroken as ever. Please let me explain Warning-Long Post)
    It started out wonderful.....I was texting him throughout my day on the day that I was flying there. I sent him picture messages when I was in the airport...at the gate...on the jetway..etc. He loved that. He was saying how nervous he was that I was almost there. When we talked he sounded so excited! Fast forward-ok so I land and I texted him 'TOUCHDOWN'...and then we were talking to each other the whole time I was walking through the airport making my way to baggage claim. When I finally was walking towards him..both of us still on our phones and realizing that we were staring at each other, I simply wanted to MELT. He immediately hugged me...kissed me...put his arm around me and we started walking and talking. He didn't care who was looking at us..he expressed his feelings openly and freely. He's reserved a nice hotel room for us so that's where we were headed. When we got there we kept talking and staring at each other...hugging and kissing...it was BLISS. I felt so at ease with him because we'd been talking/texting/skyping/emailing for 6 months..as a matter of fact this day was our 'monthversary'..6 months to the exact day. Well..one thing led to another and we became 'intimate'.Fast forward-->next day...he ordered breakfast for us and he rented a car and took me sightseeing all over his city. He took me to coffee houses and by the end of the day...a very nice restaurant. I was still feelin the BLISS. So in love i was (and still am). Ok here is where things began to change a little.....After the dinner at the restaurant, we went to his house. Once there he turned on the TV and the computer and the game system...we played a little PS3 and then he chose a movie on netflix and made us popcorn. This was nice..but I noticed that he was no longer hugging me or kissing me or gazing into my eyes..y'know...it seemed more like two friends instead of two lovers. When I would get close to him he would just not really do anything..he wouldn't respond anymore. The loving tone in his voice was now just monotone..i chalked it up to fatigue. I knew I'd be leaving the next day and I was wanting that connection..something i could leave with and hold on to until the next time we meet. We ended up falling asleep. Next day when he was even more distant..to the point where i said to him..'What's up? why aren't you touching me? ' He was on facebook...watchin football..etc i said to him...'are we going to make love before i leave for good?' He gave me a bunch of reasons for NO: My knees bother me...i dont want u to get pregnant, my back..etc But more than what he was saying was how he was saying it....kind of 'cold'. I begin to cry and he says that I'm making this all about sex..oh man it was going downhill. So no amount of anything would make him revert back to his loving ways from the night we met. He was nice..yes...cordial...yes...but ...He even let me know that I didn't look how he expected (not as svelte as he thought i's be). From that point on I was fighting back tears..all the way until we were back at the airport and saying our goodbyes. I wrote him an email telling him how much I loved him and enjoyed my time and then I called him and asked him what he thought of my email...Long story short this question led to a conversation where he revealed that he was not enjoying himself when we were 'intimate' , he's having doubts about the relationship, the visit didn't measure up to his preconcieved thoughts of how it would be( i think 'not as awesome as i thought it would be' is how he put it) and he wants to slow things down and 'maybe in a few months..we can see where we're at'..and the most hurtful of all....when i asked if he is still in love with me...he wouldnt answer..he just would say..'i am still hopeful to have that connection with someone' ****i am HEARTBROKEN.....i can't sleep..i can't eat.....i literally feel like dying. I asked him if he wanted to continue this..and he said that yes he did..but at a slower pace and us just living our lives separately. I feel so alone now.

    #2
    OMG! I'm so sorry that you had to and are going though that. *Hugs* I don't even know what to say other than I feel so bad for you. I'm sorry I can't really offer any advice of first meetings. Me and my SO have been together for over two years and haven't got to meet in person yet. But what I can say is for him to treat you like that instead of talking you about how he was feeling is really messed up and that he isnt very mature. And why does he want to stay together if he wants to live "separate lives" all that seems like it would do is make things hardder for you and easier for him. I dont want to seem blunt but it seems like he wants to keep you on the back burnner while he looks for someone new. And that is not fair to you in any way shape or form. You deserve better than that. I dont know what else to say I'm sorry. If you ever need to talk I'm here. Take care!! *hugs*

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      #3
      I'm so sorry this happened to you and honestly it's more common than you would think, I know many people who had amazing relationships up until the point of meeting where one or both people seemed to have higher expectations. The only advice I can really think to give is to tell him that he fell in love with who you are as a person and you haven't changed but sometimes intimate feelings take a bit of time to grow, not everything is sparks right off the bat, some people need time to adjust to the overwhelming process of putting physical touches up against their imaginations. See what he says to that and then give him some space so he has time to think things through without feeling pressured to make a decision.

      Notes:
      Met: 8.17.09
      Started Dating: 8.20.09
      First Met: 10.2.10
      Closed the Distance: 8.9.14

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        #4
        Does anyone else want to hit him or can I just do it??! I'm so sorry hun

        My immediate reaction is that he is shallow and not good enough for you. But when you are heartbroken that isnt really what is going to help. I think you need to remind him that looks should have nothing to do with it. He liked you for the person he came to know from a distance. That has not changed. If he is upset because you dont look like he wanted you to, then that is his problem, NOT YOURS! And you wernt making it about sex. You wanted to make love to the guy that you are in love with and came all that way to see. He is the one who was mad about the sex. Yes, it is an important aspect of your relationship. But im pretty sure he is ridiculous!

        If he doesnt want to end it that is fine. It is great that he wants to keep trying. But you need to tell him that the way you look will probably be the same next time you see him. So if that is going to be that big of an issue then there is no point in continuing on. A guy who is going to put on video games or be busy with Facebook while you are upset is not a guy you need to be with. I think you have every right to be devastated but i also think that you deserve better than that.

        Im so sorry that you have to go through this and we are all here for you
        Got together Jan 3, 2011~ Closed the Distance March 23, 2012~ Living Together Since June 19 2012~ Future TBD......

        I miss you more than I ever could have believed; and I was prepared to miss you a good deal." ~ Vita Sackville-west

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          #5
          Sorry i am agree with bethypoo!!

          I feel like i want to kick him on his crouch >>sorry for much violence here!

          Its just, you came there, with expectation, and.. geezzz you got intimate and he said nothing about it. Like at the airport at least give a hint; lets meet up as friend and slow things up. But no.. he went to that last base and score. If he thinks that you're not as he's expected that's what very reasonable thing to say as a good guy. Not saying that AFTER he got what he wanted!!

          I just think he just being a jerk. Very sorry.. i just don't like the fact you came there after i believe chat, phonecalls, skype or at least exchange pictures and he gave you that line?based on physical appearance only??

          Sorry, but this guy not good for you, instead giving you confidence he made you feel bad about your self and the way you look.

          If he short of Athens Gods with a drop dead good looking, i might still think ok.. its just he not used to see imperfections... but.. hey we're talking about humans and their flaws.... and he judge you from your looks??? I don't like this kind of guy.

          I wont bother to contact him ever again, and just forget it. Sorry if i made you feel sad, but honey, you don't deserve the way he treated you.. really!!

          *hugs* you better off without this shallow minded creature.

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            #6
            i agree with the above posters. I think he deserves to be smacked. It sounds like he led you on, he got intimate with you, didn't say anything about your looks before hand. If he was having doubts he should not have went all the way and said something to you. I think you deserve so much better. He sounds completely shallow and vain. To have a change of heart and lose feelings strictly over looks, you don't need a man like that, love is supposed to be more then skin deep. Im so sorry for the way he treated you.
            I love you Nathan <3
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              #7
              Gosh I am so sorry this happened to you *hugs*

              tbh I wouldn't stick around someone like that. Maybe don't contact him for a week and have some time to yourself to think if this is what you want to do.

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                #8
                i agree with everyone's post and he deserves to be smack for treating you the way he did.

                im so sorry for what happened to you **HUGGSSS**

                i think its best you don't contact him and give yourself some time to breath and think what the next step should be.

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                  #9
                  Hi Everyone,
                  I am crying so hard as I am reading your replies and as I write this. I feel like such a weakling.....I tried to contact him again tonight. I logged on to the website where we met and saw that he was on. Usually he would see that I logged on and we would chat. Instead this time...he logged off soon after I was on (avoiding me?) and then I tried to call his cell phone. It rang until it went to voicemail....i then tried to call again and now it doesn't even ring...just goes to voicemail. Meaning he turned the phone off after he saw that I was calling. And even more pathetic...I then sent him a text begging him not to avoid me...saying that i love him..and I even left a voicemail saying the same things. Why Why did this happen?? How do I get over this pain!? I can't concentrate. All of you are all I have holding me up right now..and I thank you. This LDR had me believing in love......I let my guard down and opened myself up and I feel like I was so stupid to do that now.

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                    #10
                    Sadly there are people like this out in the world. It makes me wonder if he has met someone else but was too cowardly to cancel the visit/wanted to keep you as a backup/get physical gratification. That sounds absolutely harsh and cruel but sadly there are people like this. I am so, so sorry this had to happen to you. Don't let it ruin love for you. Cut off contact and cry yourself to bits and then you will begin to heal over time. You will meet someone who loves you as much as you love them and be happy, I promise. Hang in there. <3

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                      #11
                      I am so, so sorry this happened to you. That guy sounds like a jerk to me. There's not really cures for a broken heart, but I'd advice you to do what you can to take your mind off him - hang out with friends, do things you enjoy, spend time with family. You're not stupid, and you're not pathetic - what he did was obviously unfair for you, because if he wanted to take things slow, he should have done it in the first place. Not to mention that you don't go telling people they're not what you expect. He didn't treat you right, and it's understandable you're feeling the way you feel now. Be kind to yourself, dear, don't think you're stupid. That guy didn't deserve you.

                      If you would like to talk about it privately, feel free to message me. Loads of hugs to you!
                      "Everyone smiles in the same language."

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                        #12
                        I LOVE YOU ALL. You guys take time out of your day to read my problem and also respond. How I wish I could hug each one of you. I have no one else to turn to. I just wanted to express that...my gratitude.
                        Oh btw....getting 'intimate' was such a big deal....i don't just do that y'know? Not with just anyone..... In fact..before that moment..i'd only been with one other person in my life. I did it because I love him and I thought he loved me. I even asked him...during...'Do you love me'?...and of course he whispered 'yes' in my ear and I was just in another world.

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                          #13
                          *hugs*

                          Hope you do really feel better you're not a bad person because someone took advantages of your feeling stop feeling guilty, things happens...... take this as a life lesson.. but you have to remember too, not all guys on LDR are jerks... just some guys worth the struggle and some not...

                          Take your time for healing.... do not contact him anymore. He is not worth it, and everyone here could see that sorry...

                          And once again... its not your mistake!! please do be happy its over.. and you know that he's a jerk sooner... before he ruin your self much worse by making you feel more insecure.

                          *hugs*

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                            #14
                            I'm so sorry to hear this. *hugs* I wish there was something I could do.
                            Happily married to the little Canadian boy I never thought I'd meet in person

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                              #15
                              Ouch. I'm so sorry you had to go through this. It must have been absolutely horrible. You really do deserve someone better, though. Don't stay with him. There are many other guys out there that would treat you like you deserve it.

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