Eh, I decided to break things off with my s/o. Honestly, I should've done this back in January, but I hadn't quite reached my breaking point back then.

Yesterday, after him continuing to put off talking about the big issues in our relationship, I decided to just send him a message and be like "Look this is the shit that's going on and we need to fix it, otherwise you're going to lose me."
...tooooo which he ignored me. I'd say I'm surprised, but I'm not. He read the message, but was refusing to acknowledge it. The thing with big relationship issues is that they don't go away when you ignore them. They only get bigger. I had been telling him this for months.

I don't know what the hell happened that made him go from buying me flowers and being incredibly dedicated, to disappearing on me for two weeks and generally ignoring me all the time. I am going to say it's his fault, because even he acknowledged he was being an ass. I've been patient and supportive of him, but I guess wanting to talk out issues made me a stinky butt or something idk. I'm not mad. I'm not upset. I'm just generally kinda tired, and that might just be because I had a girl's night with a friend last night.

I told him we should just be friends, because I feel like that's what he needs right now. I personally don't think he's quite over the relationship he had where he thought he was going to marry the girl, which is fine. Take time and heal, because we've all been in that position and it sucks. However, he shouldn't have pursued a relationship with me knowing he wasn't exactly over her, because he started to punish me and our relationship because that one didn't work out. So I guess while I don't know why exactly he changed, I feel like that might be a big part of it. Like, if I was a rebound or something like that, that's totally fine. Those happen, and I'm not insulted by it. It wasn't like this only started when he disappeared for two weeks. And I'd still be willing to forgive the two week thing if it weren't for the fact that he's starting to pull his disappearing act again. A single sentence a day or straight-up nothing for days at a time is not how relationships work. I would have been willing to forgive the days of nothingness if he hadn't disappeared for two weeks. It's kind of a messy cycle.

Idk. He isn't who he was when we first started dating. I hope he's able to come to terms with everything that's bothering him, but I really don't feel like waiting around for that to happen. I do enough waiting around in my daily life as it is. I talk to my doctors more often than I spoke to my s/o. And also, for me, another slightly more serious issue is possibly resurfacing, so I do not have the energy to worry about a flighty 26 year old who's terrified of the big bad L-word.

I feel like I'm rambling. Anyway, overall I'm pretty apathetic to the whole break up. He hasn't checked his phone (shocking, I know), so when he does, I guess he'll be in for a surprise. I don't really care what he has to say about it, either. We can be just fine as friends. I'll still be around on the forums, probably about as often as I normally am. I'm not swearing off LDRs, because I am absolutely hellbent on NOT dating someone from my hometown or school district. Just no. So, I'll probably end up in another LDR of some variety, or at least a slightly inconvenient CDR. This hasn't warped my perception of LDRs either, and I'm still very excited and very happy for everyone who's able to make theirs work.

Such is life.