Today I'm feeling quite relieved about things. We discussed through some issues that we had been dealing with, albeit silently in our heads, and we needed to get them out before we would, figuratively, explode. But thankfully, we talked them out really calmly and it actually felt kind of fun? to get the issues off our chests.

I'm also feeling a lot happier because we're making baby steps to getting ready to close the distance sometime next year. We had initially discussed a vague idea of closing the distance around summer 2015, but of course life and money got in the way and that won't be possible. So we've come up with a different solution. We're now aiming for November 2015 - February 2016. I feel that is more realistic to close the distance especially with the issue of money. We also organised a list of what things he feels he will immediately need to bring over when he does move over, and what things can be boxed up in his room and shipped over at a later date. Fortunately, he doesn't have too much stuff that is super urgent to him and nor does he have that much stuff in general. We decided only the essentials such as the obvious things such as clothing, documentation (the usual stuff like his birth certificate, passport is renewed by then etcetc), small electrical things such as his phone/laptop/shaver and that we would try to get his bed and tv over (but that depends on if my family have found a big enough house for us all to live in by then).

Anyway, we made a few other lists. Things to do with financially - and when he is visiting over Christmas, we're going to sit at my computer and look at job listings in his city online for a second job for him - because he is currently on a 0 hours contract and he needs to at least have a job that gives him a minimum of 16-24hrs a week and that we're going to refine his CV together (I'm good with formatting things like that) so that it makes it easier for him to have a good chance at getting that second job. I have also been contributing a bit more, as I'll be helping out with paying towards the visits in between the ideal date to close the distance. So it's becoming much more balanced.

The other lists we made together included: improving emotional communication (for example: no taking bad moods out on each other, because it's unfair to do that to each other. We both do this as much as each other and it usually ends up with awkward moments of tension which I really don't like having because for one thing: it's not needed. We've been in this relationship long enough to be able to communicate things in a mature way if that makes sense) and personal ambitions or goals (for example: his is to keep motivated to keep exercising and to save up money, whilst mine is to keep gaining weight steadily and to stop picking my skin when I feel a bout of anxiety coming on).

Overall it was a really enjoyable discussion and I actually had a night where I could fall asleep without feeling so pent up with emotions or anxieties regarding our future timeline. Another thing we discussed was that our limits for being long distance, we both agreed that the amount of years in total would be around 6yrs LDR, and we're in our 3rd year. So that still gives us plenty time to get our butts into gear.

I'm just so relieved we could talk everything out and get a plan written down. I love him so much. And I love being his so much. Just phew, you know?