I had a bad run of awful luck there for a bit, but things are looking better, much better!

I went on my trip back home to visit my friends and family, but mostly to be there for my mother. It just so happens that the things with her were NOT as serious as we thought they were (the surgery was serious but the recovery is going fantastic) and thats a huge weight off my shoulders. I did discover something though. I was not happy to be home. I wasn't comfortable. I felt like an outcast. I didn't feel like I fit in with my friends anymore and it took me speaking to Kevin's mother to understand it.

I was talking to Ann about how I felt being back home (I didn't want to hurt my friends nor my family) and she listened. What she said next though put me at ease. She told me that how I felt should be complete proof that I had made the right decision, that now my home, his home will be our home no matter where we live.

It felt fantastic coming home to Kevin, and spending time with him in OUR home. We are both VERY happy that we do not, and will not have travel plans until December when we go to NY together for Xmas with our families!