I'm just going to vent...a lot. I have a lot going on right now, and I feel like I'm in over my head. College is kicking my ass. I'm a biology major, taking both biology and chemistry....not my decision, it was the school's. This chem class is probably the hardest class I've taken in my entire life. I'm actually failing it. I've never failed anything! I got a 40 on my first test, but all my lab grades have been good, and I have a few other good grades on various assignments, so I wasn't failing so terribly....maybe by 2 points or so. I just got a 9 on our test we just took. Yes, a 9 out of 100! That put me over the edge and I feel so overwhelmed. I need to get a C to stay on track to graduate in 4 years. My scholarship only covers 4 years and I only keep it if I get a 3.0 GPA. Right now, I have a 3.067, so I still have it for now. But, I'm most likely going to get to the academic center soon to try and see if they can help me, and my friends in the class are willing to help me and told me they'd help me study. On a completely unrelated note, my SO and I have had minimal conversation the past few days...not sure why. I've had to initiate a lot of the conversations, and I always feel like I'm being annoying when I initiate, so I usually wait for him. Yesterday, we didn't get a chance to talk at all. =[ He wasn't even online at all yesterday either, which is bizarre. We haven't talked yet today, and he hasn't been online yet today either!!! I'm really beginning to worry about him, but I don't want to contact him first. I'm hoping he'll text me first, but so far, nothing. I'm sure he's just busy with his schoolwork and various activities on campus. But, it's making me really sad and I'm just feeling very insecure. ='[ I can't even cry, I don't know why...I want to, but I just physically can't right now. I'm also getting relatively close to my period, so I'm probably PMSing too, so that makes me feel even worse. I just needed to vent, I'm sorry. I just REALLY miss him a lot right now.