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loveknowsnodistance27 started a blog post 8 Months, and the Waiting Is the Hardest Part8 Months, and the Waiting Is the Hardest Part
I honestly don't know what to write about, but I just have this overwhelming urge to write. I'm so ready to close the distance, even if it's only going to be temporary...I'm ready to hold Anthony in my arms again, to spend the summer together. I really miss him so fucking much. Today, we've been together 8 months!!! <3 I'm so excited for both of us, and I wish we could spend it together. These past 8 months have been so amazing, despite the distance...I feel so close to Anthony and so in love. He's just the best person I could have ever asked to spend these months with. We haven't talked yet today, but it's still early on in the day, and I'm waiting to see if he'll text me first. =] I want to see if he has time to talk on the phone tonight, because I really miss his voice. I could always propose a video chat on ooVoo or Skype tonight too, but I'd rather talk on the phone, I don't know why. I feel like it makes it more special when I actually see him in person if we don't "see" each other while we're apart. In our 8 months together, we've had 3 cam sessions. 1 of which was when he was home for winter break and we had about 5 of us on camera...our little group of friends, which was awesome! We cammed for about 5 hours that day. Well, now I'm ranting about camming...I knew this blog would be all over the place. =P Anyway, yesterday we talked for a little bit. He sent me a FB chat message, and we talked on there for about a minute. I asked if I could text him, because I was at my dad's fiance's house and we were all working on wedding decorations. He said sure, so I texted him. He didn't seem into the conversation...weird seeing as he'd initiated on FB. It just ended abruptly, and it seemed rather strange. We end convos abruptly from time to time, but the whole convo just seemed...off. Oh well, I'm sure it's fine. Last night, I hung out with my dad and his fiance and we started talking about their upcoming wedding. June 4th, can't wait!!! =] Anthony will be spending the weekend of the wedding with all of us out at my dad's fiance's house! <3 So, my dad's fiance Jude was telling me about this beach about 2 minutes from her house, and she said I should bring Anthony the Friday evening before the wedding. It's a beautiful beach with these wooden bridges that are built over the sand dunes, so they are basically "rolling" and it sounds absolutely romantic! There are also bands that play each night. This beach is where my dad proposed to Jude, also! So, I'm going to surprise Anthony that evening and tell him we have to go somewhere, but I won't say where. I'll bring him to the beach and we'll just spend some time there in this beautiful, romantic paradise together. God, I can't wait! Is he home yet??? I'm getting super antsy and excited. Only 34 more days, which feels like an eternity! I know I just need to suck it up and get through, but I just don't know how to do that lol. I feel like I NEED Anthony here right now. I'm on the verge of tears right now, from feeling so emotional about the 8 month milestone for us, missing him, and I'm also listening to my dad and Jude's wedding song, "Harvest Moon" by Neil Young. It's a beautiful song, and I love it. *sigh* So many emotions at once...
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#1Tara_Lynn commentedEditing a commentGotta love all the crazy emotions that come with an LDR. Like you said though, only 34 more days! You are very lucky. I hope your time with him is everything you could hope for!!
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#2loveknowsnodistance27 commentedEditing a commentThanks! =] Well, I gave up waiting and texted him. I wrote "HAPPY 8 MONTHS!! I love you so much! <3" and he sent back "same to you. I love you, too <3!!" which I felt didn't sound like him....at all! =[ He never says "same to you." I'm reading too much into this....I could tell he didn't feel like talking. He's probably just busy. He finally got his boot server working, so he's finishing up that. I'll hold off on asking for a phone conversation for a few more days. I really want to talk to him on the phone, but I think it'd make him feel like "oh, I'm so busy but I have to make time to talk to Jen." and I don't want him feeling like that. Oh well, I guess a few more days won't kill me.
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#3Tara_Lynn commentedEditing a commentAs far as the text goes, he said same to you just about the anniversary part. Not the all important "I love you". He wrote that out and even put a heart. So I wouldn't be worried about that. You are just overanalyzing on that I think. And ask him to talk. Give him a few times that you are available over the next week. Let him pick out the best time for him to talk to you. That way he feels like you understand he is very busy and are being considerate while telling him your needs. There is nothing wrong with wanting a phone convo. My So and I have started having to schedule phone appointments. It stinks, but he understands my need to talk every once and awhile and is grateful that I am considerate enough to work around both of our hectic schedules. It doesn't always work perfectly, but it is worth a shot.
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