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loveknowsnodistance27 started a blog post Alone in this WorldAlone in this World
I feel so alone in this world. I have no one to turn to when it comes to this LDR! Nobody understands what I'm feeling, no matter how much they tell me they do. My friends and family in particular try to empathize with me, but they don't get it. They really don't. Some of my friends even told me going into it that I was insane for even bothering with an LDR. Again, they don't know how I'm feeling...I love Anthony more than anything in the world, and I've wanted to be with him for years before we actually became a couple, so seeing as LD would be the only way we could be in a relationship with him going to college, I was all for it. I'll admit I was extremely scared going into it. But, it's so worth it and I am so glad we did. I'm feeling down because I haven't heard from Anthony in almost 2 days. All I got was a poke on my FB page from him yesterday. But, that's SOMETHING! He's been MIA all day...he hasn't been online at all today, nor has he texted me. I'm worried. It's making me frustrated because I miss him so fucking badly. I'm not angry with him, I'm just angry with the situation, the fact that we're long distance. It's so hard knowing we'll be together for the entire summer in 32 days, almost a month, but I have to wait that month out to see him. Every day, it seems to get easier and tougher at the same time. I'm on the verge of tears because I just am worried about Anthony. My dad called me, and I snapped at him because he told me that I'm not happy....well, that's not true! He doesn't know how I'm feeling, he's not me! I AM HAPPY! I'm just frustrated and feeling emotionally a bit weak right now. He thinks the LDR is making me miserable, but I'm not. I'm living my own life day to day and just waiting to see Anthony again. I am allowed to be upset at times, and this is just one of those times. Long distance is very hard and takes its toll emotionally big time. He's never been in a LDR of this caliber, so he's not one to tell me what I'm feeling. He tells me that he thinks this relationship isn't good for me because I always "seem upset." But, I'm not always upset. Sometimes I do get upset, but it's not all the time. I think he thinks I'm wasting my time....but, I know I'm not. Anthony is the love of my life, and I'd me much more miserable without Anthony than being long distance with Anthony. We're in this together, we're a team. We can get through it, and we are each and every day. I just want people in my life to stop telling me what I am feeling and that they understand what being in an LDR is like, when in reality, they have no freaking clue what it's like. I don't want any empathy from them, I just want to feel how I'm feeling, with no questions asked or any comments made by people who don't understand.-
#1acroush commentedEditing a comment:/ I am sorry that things are looking down at the moment, but think 32 more DAYS! That's nothing and then you will be happy as a clam for the whole summer! People can be dumb and think they know what is best for you, but in your own heart you know what to do and not let others drag you down. Try not to be so hard on them, especially your family, they really are saying these things out of love and they are just worried about you. They might not say it in the nicest way, but when they see you down in the dumps they just want to stop what is hurting you, they tend not to see the bigger picture. Try to get out and not just sit and wait for the 32 days to expire... I know I know I tend to do this too, but it is good to get out and live your own life and not let the world pass you by while you are waiting. This might kill 2 birds with one stone, your dad might see you getting out and being active without the SO and it will help pass the time so your not sitting counting the seconds.
Hope things are looking up and you hear from you so soon!
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