Welcome back to distance. 360 miles of it....and I want to go back to CD. Not an option, though. Anthony's been back at school for 2 days now and it seems like I'm handling it much better this time around already, but it's still hard. I haven't cried nearly as much as I did last year when we started the first round of distance. I'm extremely frustrated though. Since he's been away, he's barely made any effort to contact me. He texted me the first day for a little bit, but didn't ask how I was doing at all and kept giving me one word answers. Today, we got to Facebook chat for a little while, and something just didn't seem right. I feel distant from him. (No pun intended) I understand that he's busy getting settled in his dorm, and spending time with his friends there but he could at least make a little more of an effort to talk to me. Gosh, I must sound like such a selfish bitch...I'm really not like this! It's just so hard to adjust from being close distance for months, where I could see him whenever we wanted to, and I could talk to him all day and phone calls could go on for hours, and on a whim....to being long distance where he's busy with activities on floor, friends, school work and the like, where we're lucky if we get to text for a little while on a given day or FB chat. Phone calls only happen about once a month or so. It's a completely different way of life for us, and it's going to take some time to get used to this again. I just wish I could stop telling myself that he doesn't love me when I know that's totally farfetched and the farthest thing ever from the truth! Sorry for the rant, I just had a lot on my mind. This is so hard...I miss him so much and I love him more than anything in the world! I just want to hear from him and have a good conversation like old times. <33