I tried to go to bed early...didn't work. I was so ready to just fall asleep and I get this really fucking brilliant idea of texting Anthony to wish him a good night. So, I wrote "Just wanted to say good night. I love you so much! Sleep sweet <33" and he responds back "thanks! good night to you as well!" Where's my heart or my I love you? Maybe I'm reading into this too much. I probably am...I always do this, and make myself miserable over this. I just feel a bit neglected since he went back to college. He's so consumed in activities on his floor that he almost forgets about home and the fact that I'm 360 miles away. I miss MY boyfriend....the wonderful guy I love with all of my heart. The guy who was so attentive to my every need, who was affectionate and sweet and loving. I know he'll settle in and get back into the routine hopefully soon so that way we can get back to our usual talking and such. But, it's frustrating waiting for that to happen, because he doesn't realize he's making me upset. I talked to him on the phone about this yesterday and I think he understood what I was talking about and where I was coming from. I guess I just have to keep waiting and be patient. I know my boyfriend will turn this around soon. *sigh* But, I just want him to go back to that way right now...