DISCLAIMER: This is going to be a whiny post.
I'm just like asdfghjkl right now. Yesterday around 4:30pm, I called Anthony. Things seemed fine, but we only got to talk for like 2 minutes. He asked if he could call me back in a little while. I said "Sure". So, I go to my class at 5:30, still heard nothing. My class was 3 hours long. Nothing. I go to bed at 11, send him a message just kind of telling him that he didn't text me and I was tired, so I'd stayed up a few extra hours waiting for him to call and how I missed the days when we were younger and used to talk on the phone a lot. (Prior to us dating). I could barely sleep because my mind was just racing. Lately, I've been working on not overthinking things and I've been doing well. But last night, I overthought this totally and created insanely unlikely and horrible scenarios in my head. I woke up at 3:30am and I was having an anxiety attack. I haven't had one since January 2012. I texted him in the morning when I woke up at like 9 apologizing for last night. Never heard back from him. Now I am in a panic. So, I was in class a little while ago and I Facebook messaged him asking him if he was mad at me. He replied that he was in class. He was like "I have a lab that's due soon so I need to get it done but we'll talk more about this later." I am fine with that. He just got out of class a little while ago. He's probably eating dinner or something. I'm just worried. I don't know what's going on. He's probably just busy but of course I am thinking the worst. I'm like "he's going to break up with me", "that's so ridiculous Jen, he loves you", "ugh he hates me". It's a constant battle within my head. I'm so scared to lose him. D:
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Worried and Stressing--Probably Overreacting But I Needed To Get My Thoughts Out
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#1marbear31 commentedEditing a commentAww hon, don't be worrying like that! I know exactly what you mean--I go through periods when I randomly think, "Oh my gosh, he doesn't love me!" and then tell myself two seconds later, "Mary, seriously, get a grip. He's probably not by his phone or is just busy doing other work." I know with college it's different because sometimes random assignments come up and/or friends stop by, but, in general, it's best to assume they're busy with work or just need a break from life and/or people. I'm sorry he's making you worry, though--just be patient, and know he loves you. I'm here if you need to talk!
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#2kiara_silver commentedEditing a commentaww, I hate moments like these when you don't know what he's up to. And of course our minds play the worst. But like marbear31 said, relax, remember he loves you. Im sure hes just caught up in all his work and you'll hear from him soon!
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