****DISCLAIMER: THIS BLOG IS GOING TO BE WHINY****


I can't do it anymore. I am all of a sudden having a really really hard time with the distance. My SO and I have both been very busy lately. Our schedules are pretty opposite so there's not a lot of times that we have free time at the same time. I really miss him so much. We get to text or Facebook message 4-6 days a week or so and we barely ever get to talk on the phone. I know beggars can't be choosers but I wish we could talk more than we do. I am lucky to have him in my life. Our summer plans aren't decided yet either. He will be home in about a month, so I just need to get through that, but it seems like so long from now! =[ Anthony may be co-oping this summer, so everything depends on that. He could get a co-op anywhere in the country, so there is a possibility he could be home but there is a possibility he could be somewhere else, thus extending our distance for 3 months as opposed to closing the distance for 3 months. I want him to be done with college already so we can close the distance already!!! I am getting impatient and while it was getting easier, it seems like all of a sudden it's a lot more to handle. I am graduating in 34 days and I couldn't be happier. I just have so much to get done before then for school. I got my cap and gown on Monday! It feels so real now! I am so stressed out about a lot of things right now, so I'm just like asdfhjkl and I feel like I really need Anthony to get through it all. It sucks not being able to have a hug when I need one. Sorry for my whining. I know a lot of people have it worse than me, but I'm just having a hard time. I don't know what to do. I love him so much and I just needed to get my thoughts out I guess. I wish I could find that strength deep inside of me to carry on and hang in there.