Holy cow! My hormones are kinda crazy right now. Just need to get through to Tuesday. Ring free week starts on Sunday so around Tuesday, I will finally get the mental relief I need. I am making myself crazy. Anthony is really working hard in school, so I haven't had much of a chance to talk to him, and of course stupid me makes assumptions that when someone is quiet, they are mad. I've been trying so hard not to overthink, but it's in my nature. -__- I've been reading a lot of old text messages and cards he's given me to reassure myself. It helps for awhile. Sometimes I begin overthinking again so I try to talk myself down again. I'm sure nothing is wrong. He loves me. But of course the fear of losing him is there. I need to trust that everything's okay and I know we'll get to talk soon. It's just hard being apart from the one you love. But, I don't have to tell you guys that. Insecurity is ugly and I hate feeling down. I am trying to pick myself up. I'm trying to stay positive and focus on what I need to get done. He'll be home in a few weeks. I can do this. I have to do this. I am stronger than this. I just miss him so much. I'll hear songs on the radio that remind me of him and I feel comforted in a way. It feels as if it's a sign telling me he's thinking of me. I just need to feed off of those moments and let them resonate to make me feel better.