My Vegas trip is probably not going to happen after all. I am really bummed. What happened was I spoke to one of the teachers and she said that it'd probably be best if I wait until next year to go to Vegas and just go to Atlantic City in May after I know more about the field. *sigh* I guess everything happens for a reason. I'm thinking now that Vegas fell through, I can use that weekend to visit Anthony. It'll be Columbus Day weekend so I could spend about 3 and a half days with him. That'll be nice though since it'll be almost 2 months since we'd seen each other then.

We're going back to long distance in 16 days. I can't even believe how quickly it went. I don't want him to go back! Thinking about it makes my stomach hurt. I don't think I can do it again. This'll be the 4th time we're doing this and it never gets any easier. I just want him to be done with school so we can finally be together permanently. In a way, I am beginning to regret my school choice. I absolutely love my program and I am doing very well so far, but I am kicking myself because I could've chosen to go up to Rochester to Anthony's school for the same thing. Then, we'd be together. But, the program I am in is one of the best in the nation and I hate Rochester so much. I can't win. I really can't.

Anthony and I had a pretty major argument the other night, based on a misunderstanding. Our big mistake was that it was via text, so it could've been avoided if we just talked on the phone. He misinterpreted something I said. I'm not getting into it because it's just a whole "he said she said" argument then. Well, he was giving me the silent treatment yesterday. I hate that more than anything. So, I stopped at his house and I apologized profusely. He at least talked to me, gave me a hug and a kiss and still said "I love you." I haven't heard from him since. He was working when I stopped by so he couldn't really talk. I really wish he wouldn't hold this against me and I wish we could just talk it out and make up. But, I guess when he's cooled down, it'll be better for us. It just really sucks because this happened so close to our anniversary and before he goes back. Our days are numbered before 360 miles keeps us apart. I hope to god we can see each other tonight.