But blah blah blah, woe is me. I know I need to suck it up and shut up. I really didn't want to go back to long distance. Not one bit. I am really struggling with accepting that this is how it has to be. I might be visiting in the middle of October which I know isn't too far away. Sometimes I question why I even bother doing long distance, but I look back on the last 3 years and how far we've made it, between being LD and CD. So many amazing memories and so much love. I know it's not going to be forever either....around December of 2014 we are looking at closing the distance permanently! It is a matter of when he finishes with school. Keep your fingers crossed. It's only a year and a half more without him. Then, we can begin our life together! I am dying for the future to get here. I want to move in together, get engaged, married, etc. I know we are meant to be together. I want to be a normal couple and be treated like our relationship is real. My extended family treats Anthony like family, yet they think that because we are 21 that it's only a phase and that we'll move on...um, my feelings for Anthony haven't changed in 12 years. So they can't say we're not serious. I can't stand my family acting like he's disposable! Too bad, he's here to stay, whether they like it or not!!! *insert middle finger here*
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loveknowsnodistance27 started a blog post Here It Goes Again...Long Distance for the 4th time.Here It Goes Again...Long Distance for the 4th time.
So, Anthony drove back to Rochester on Sunday. I've been doing surprisingly okay for the most part. Nights are the hardest. Trying to fall asleep knowing he's 360 miles away and not in my arms hurts. I really miss him a lot. I'm handling it pretty well and I haven't really cried since Monday about it. I haven't heard from him since he got in on Sunday night. He'd texted me to let me know he arrived safely. I know he's been busy between unpacking, buying and assembling furniture, helping freshmen move in, working (his job) and catching up with friends, but I can't help but be upset that I haven't even gotten a text saying he misses me or that he loves me or ANYTHING. I'm jealous. I hate that they get all of his time. His friends, I mean. I want him to miss me. I want him to make me a priority. I just want my boyfriend back!! But blah blah blah, woe is me. I know I need to suck it up and shut up. I really didn't want to go back to long distance. Not one bit. I am really struggling with accepting that this is how it has to be. I might be visiting in the middle of October which I know isn't too far away. Sometimes I question why I even bother doing long distance, but I look back on the last 3 years and how far we've made it, between being LD and CD. So many amazing memories and so much love. I know it's not going to be forever either....around December of 2014 we are looking at closing the distance permanently! It is a matter of when he finishes with school. Keep your fingers crossed. It's only a year and a half more without him. Then, we can begin our life together! I am dying for the future to get here. I want to move in together, get engaged, married, etc. I know we are meant to be together. I want to be a normal couple and be treated like our relationship is real. My extended family treats Anthony like family, yet they think that because we are 21 that it's only a phase and that we'll move on...um, my feelings for Anthony haven't changed in 12 years. So they can't say we're not serious. I can't stand my family acting like he's disposable! Too bad, he's here to stay, whether they like it or not!!! *insert middle finger here*
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