So, Anthony should be home in 6 or 7 days!! 6 or 7 more sleeps!!! Of course I am so excited to see him, but I am also scared shitless. This happens EVERY. TIME. It's been almost 3 and a half years, you'd think by now the jitters would pass. But, they haven't. I always have this fear that he won't be as into me when he comes home and that he won't love me. Those feelings disappear the moment I am back in his arms. I am just so freaking nervous. We've both been busier than ever with our differing schedules and demanding programs of study, so we haven't had that much time to talk and focus on our relationship as much as we probably should. Somehow I am taking this whole busy thing as meaning he doesn't want to be with me anymore. I hope I am just overthinking and am just feeling insecure. What do you think? Do you think that he still cares even though we're both so busy? D:

I heard this song on the radio today. It's a Christmas song, but it actually sounds like it could be a long distance song!!!



I heard it and I almost cried in the car because it was just how I've been feeling. The distance is so hard and I miss him so much.

I could really use a hug from him right now too. School has gotten so stressful. I got screamed at by the program director for failing a test and he threatened to kick me out of the program if I fail another one. He could've been a little nicer about it. So, now I have so much pressure on me to not fail out of school. *sigh* I just want my love back here with me and I want to KNOW for sure he definitely wants to be with me and is just as excited to see me as I am to see him. I want my hug and my kiss. I want to hear him say "I love you." 1 more week....just one more week...