It's been awhile since I've blogged or even been around lately. I've been really busy. Things with Jim are great! He's so amazing and we complement each other so well.
This blog is going to be a big rant. I am so sick and tired of living at home. I've had the urge to move out for 2 years now, but I am nowhere near stable enough for that. I have an associate's degree and I'm not really qualified for much since a lot of places require a bachelors minimum. I am going to be going back to college in January, so I'll finish my bachelor's then. But, I am going crazy in this house. I am sick of living under mom's rules, having no privacy, etc. It is frustrating as all hell. I can't help but blame myself for screwing up my life with school. I feel like such a failure. It'll be at least another year and a half before I graduate. I swear, I feel like I need to sneak around with Jim to get any alone time or privacy. I have to compromise the amount of sleep I get because I have to wait for my mom to go to sleep before we can fool around. I hate answering to people, so having my mom breathing down my neck is annoying. I had to get my credit card and car payment statements set to e-statements because she was opening my mail and looking through my bills. WHY? They've got my name on them, so don't touch them. Really. She has access to my bank accounts and my bank statements too. >.> I am almost 22 years old, I know how to read a bank statement and pay bills on time. She baby's me so much and I am so beyond done with it. Sorry for my venting, but I just needed to get my feelings out. I don't know what I'm looking for because I know I just need a stable income. I am going to be full time this summer and I am getting a 2% pay raise, so I'll make some money that way. But, its still not going to be enough. I guess I just need to start saving.
What other bills do you have? Car payments? I dunno, just trying to figure out what she's looking through that's such a big deal. I still think you need to talk to your mom.
Uh... I'm confused. If you're not sneaking around... "we really don't feel like getting caught"... I wasn't talking about hiding the relationship. I mean, no, clearly you don't want your mom to know when you're having sex. I guess I'm getting hung up on your phrasing.
I have car payments and my credit card. It's not really a big deal, but it just bothers me that she feels like she can just look through my financial information. I am making payments on time, so it's not like I am not paying them.
Maybe it is the phrasing. I don't want to get caught being sexual with him. Nobody wants to be walked in on and such. Lol.
I agree you should talk to her and ask her to let you handle your responsibilities on your own. Opening mail addressed to you is just not OK.