Sometimes you say and do things that I think "really? Was that necessary?". Every little thing gets me on the nerves and annoys me. You're making me frustrated and irritates me. I just want to take a pause texting you for a moment. Only thinking about myself. I'm thinking "why do I need to be here? Why do you have to do this?". I just want to fume and blow smoke if I could. Throw some things on the wall and tell you what annoys me about you when you do/say that.

But then I cool down when I realize what else you do for me. I get calm to think that you are there when I'm afraid to not make it, you're saying "this going to be okay", "You'll make it". You offer me money to buy clothes and other things you think I need. When I'm getting a panic attack and you're there to support me and doing anything to make me better. You're the only one I feel I can turn to and wouldn't want to loose you for the world. I wonder how I could live without you before.