I was really counting on this job for my SO. I was really hoping he would get it so I could pretend that we would be able to close the distance soon... And it's not a possibility now. We can't even pretend that it is. He might move home and live with his parents while he continues the job search. It would be good for us because then we wouldn't have to worry about paying rent/utilities on his apartment.

I love his family. I really do. But when he's home (and I'm pretty sure I posted about this before...) I feel like he doesn't talk to me. That is probably partly because he's not home that much, so his family/friends want to see him. I guess I'm afraid he'll be so happy with being home he'll be content with not talking to me as much.

Guess I'll need to start reading/sewing full force when I get home from work and on the weekends to keep me occupied. I know he's not doing this because he's giving up on us, but a teeny part of me feels like he is. I know he's doing this so he can save what money he is making. I know he's doing this for us, but the irrational part of me is upset he might be moving back in with his parents.

Ugggggggggh. Sorry for the depressing posts lately, I'm just bummed that he didn't get the job and hasn't heard anything from the place he really wants to work and now he might be moving back in with his parents...