But I'll try it here, maybe. When I have something I want to just get out there and...you know...blog about. It says something about the world, I suppose, that there has become a "bloggish" feeling you can get. Where you have that urge, that vague drive, to blog. Kind of like having a food craving, or feeling like reading a certain book.
I mean, there are other ways to talk about your problems or what's going on. In person. The phone. A journal. Facebook status updates. Emails. Twitter. Whatever.
And actually, I think each of them has its own...feeling....Still, I understand using those things a tad more than blogging. Probably because I don't actually have THAT many friends that would be willing to sit and read my blog, anyway. It's not actually that much more effort than composing an email to each of the friends that would read my blog. In fact, it's about the same, since my LiveJournal account has 2 friends, but only one actually cares if I post or not. And it's kind of silly, because we talk a lot anyway, but I guess he enjoys reading my rants and raves and ramblings. *shrugs* What can I say, I guess he's crazy. :P
Anyway, leave it to me to blog about blogging. Hahaha.
So right now what I am doing is procrastinating. I got off work about 2 hours ago and I should have come home and exercised, but I haven't done it yet. I was exercising every day, but then one day I was exhausted from working an extra-long shift at work and decided not to exercise, and then that dropped me out of the habit and it's been 4 days since I last exercised and I REALLY need to get back into it. I know how hard it is for me to form habits, and if I don't discipline myself, I am always going to be sporadic with my physical activity.
So after this I will go exercise. *nods convincingly*
Erm....aside from that.... I am excited for next week's paycheck (I get paid every other week), I should have lots of overtime pay on there. I work at McDonald's, which means they HATE giving people more money than they have to, which means that even though I'm technically full-time, due to half-hour unpaid breaks that they don't count into the schedule beforehand, I usually don't even make it to 38 hours of actual paid work every week. *rolls eyes*
But we lost a buttload of people the past couple of weeks (some were fired, some quit, which is what I will do as soon as I find a better job, if that happens soon), and this weekend was KILLER. We had a few back-to-back huge events going on in our town, so we got huge amounts of business. We didn't have enough people to deal with it, of course, so all of us were super-stressed out. Plus one person had turned in her 2-weeks notice, and then decided to quit early and not show up to work anymore, so my boss asked me to cover her shift as well as my own.
Though I'm totally exhausted and looking forward to tomorrow (I FINALLY have a day off work), I was super-excited to get so many hours; I doubt I'm going to get this many in the near future. I am saving up money to move to Florida in April to be with my SO, and I will have more than enough to make the actual move, but it's extra money for the first couple weeks of living there that I'm worried about. I'm making so little at McDonald's that I'm worried the move will use up too huge a chunk of whatever money I have saved up by then, and make settling in down there that much difficult.
I'm not moving in with my SO; I've never lived on my own before and that's something that would be very wise to do first. It will help me grow and mature even more, and help me figure out what I want and what I like and what I'm like, outside of anyone's shadow or interference. I need to figure out how I work when I'm taking care of myself.
So I'll be basically living on my own, though with a roommate, in all likelihood (a tentative arrangement with someone is already in place, though there are still things we're working out and some things we won't be able to figure out for sure until we get to meet in December when I visit Florida for a week).
So finding a job is important, but in case that doesn't turn out right away, I will need some extra money to cushion myself for a little bit.
Hence the ecstasy over my crazy-long hours. Anything to get more money for the move. Absolutely anything. I really really want to make it out there all right and end this distance.