I never know what to say in these blog posts... I can talk and talk and talk once you get me going, but when it's time to write a blog post... I either say too much or not enough at all.

Well, a lot changed last year. I mean, no surprises there, right? But still, my year was rather full of big choices and changes and ups and downs and getting important stuff figured out. A particularly full year, I guess.

The most relevant changes since my last blog post: I have a different SO now. This'll make the 3rd LDR I've been in during the course of just over a year. I wince every time I realize that; people, by now, must think that I am crazy and have no idea what I'm doing with myself.

However, I know something about myself I didn't know before, and I'm being treated for it, plus I realize the things I was doing wrong with my previous relationships--and so I can be reasonably certain that this time, I'm doing it for the right reasons, the right way.

My SO now is someone who has been a constant in my life for over a year now. Close on a year and a half, actually, I think. We've known each other longer, but a year and a half is how long we've been friends. And he's always been there for me. He supported me when I was going through rough times in my relationships, when I was happy, when I was sad, mad, hurt, excited, whatever.... If I needed/wanted someone to talk to, he was there.

I knew from the start that he had feelings for me. He was very open and up front about that. Eventually, after everything I've been through in the past year...well, no wonder I started developing feelings for him too. And he is, honestly, everything that I've ever wanted in a man. More than I can say of my previous boyfriends. No slight intended to them; they just weren't made for me the way Joe is.

So now I have a new love, a new perspective on life, a new attitude, more experience, and brand-new plans that I'm finally sure will work out the way I want them to, or close enough, anyway.

2011 is going to be a good year. =)