First of all I would like to mention that this week has been a tough one. The SO and I have been really busy and apart which is not the norm for us. So obviously it has tested my anxiety and attachment issues but rather than letting it take over and overwhelm me, I dealt with it. I talk to myself and open up to my SO. I don't shut down. I don't let it consume me. I learned how to do this with the tools and information my therapist has given me. And it has helped immensely.
So today him and I talked about my progress and where I am to go from here. He sees a lot of change in me. Most importantly I see the change in myself. Which for me is a big deal. I would normally just say "no I'm a failure" or something along those lines. So now that I have what I need and know what I need to do get better, the ball is in MY court. There is just so much HE can do. I have to work on this on my own now. The more I deal with it and know the triggers, my anxiety will gradually lessen. He said that I already know what I NEED to do, because I really understand my anxiety, but now I just have to make it happen. And no one else can do that but me.
I have a follow up in 2 weeks but I get the feeling that may be my last appointment for now. He wants me to work and if I need to come back then I can. It's been a really good experience and I don't regret doing it at all.
Now it's totally up to me, and I'm ready to kick some ass!
