I love my father and I know he loves me but there's comes a time where I have to say enough is enough. If you aren't going to make an effort, neither will I.

This weekend I learned that him and his stupid girlfriend have pretty much cancelled Xmas gifts to us this year. Because her daughter is going on a trip over Xmas and isn't buying or asking for gifts, my sister and I have to go without them too. Seems fair huh? Right.

To those of you who have been following my shenanigans, with my self-esteem and anxiety the last couple months, you will remember how I mentioned something about how part of the root of my issues was because I felt abandoned by my father. And when I mentioned that to my sister she disagreed and got mad...does that up there ^^ seem like a father that gives a crap? He cares more what his damn GF decides than what his daughters want.

Or what about the fact that he's never once come visit me since I moved out of my mom's place oh...7 years ago? Never once offered to come over. I'm always the one that has to go see him. (Oh but he goes to my sister's cottage often though...) Is he gonna cancel my birthday this year too? That's just a couple things. I could write about stuff for hours but what's the point.

My sister blames his girlfriend for a lot of this crap; I mean yes she's a bitch and has him totally whipped (and controls his life) but at the same time he's not putting his foot down for his girls. HE'S the one that has to start making effort for US.

Them deciding to cancel Xmas for us hurts but whatever...more money in my pockets. Maybe I'll spoil my SO a little more. Eff that, I'm so over this crap it's rediculous. I'm gonna focus more on the people who actually make an effort at showing they care about me.

Rant over...again, thanks for listening! hehe