I'm going through something and I'm not sure what to do about it. I'm in a funk and I'm bored with just about everything, in a nothing fulfils me way...
I do a whole lot of nothing too often and my life is a little bit too routine. I'm currently, and have been for a while, struggling with finding some thing that's for ME. An activity, a hobby or anything that can keep me distracted in those alone moments where my girlfriend is at work, busy or at school. But I just can't seem to figure out what that is. It's to the point now that I'm starting to really believe that I have nothing. I have no passion. And it has me pretty down and mellow. I've also found myself being really jealous of my SO and all the positive stuff she has going on and her passion. She has a path and goals. She has things she loves to do to get her mind of things and I have...nothing.
I've looked a few online courses and nothing seems to interest me. (I'm kicking myself for not taking the walking dead course a few months ago) I've tested a few hobbies and nothing sticks. I did talk to my SO about maybe selling my 8bit bead decorations I've made and accumulated but then I start doubting myself. Maybe all of this stems from my low self esteem (which kinda makes sense hearing myself saying it) or maybe it's the winter blah. Either way, I want it to stop. I need a serious pick me up and kick in the butt.
Now sure what I'm trying to get out of this blog, I feel like I'm rambling. lol I just needed to get out, without bugging my SO with it yet again. She's probably sick of hearing it by now. lol
Why can things just be simple? lol
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I also wanted to say when it comes to selling the 8bit bead collection: Go try it! I saw them on your tumblr and I think they would sell well! Just look for yourself on etsy how popular they are and you are very talented when it comes to them! (And I might even buy some from you heheheh)
Heavenly_Love12: Running is definitely something I have gotten in to. But I love doing it outside...and seeing as we're having our coldest winter in 20 years here in Ottawa, I haven't been doing it. I do go to the gym four or five times a week, which I love. I can't wait for warmer weather so I can get my ass back outside. I know that will help a whole lot.
80anthea: I have no checked meetup, maybe I will!
Zapookie: I've been to the movies by myself, it's not so bad! hehe I think that's a great idea and I could totally do that. Not only would I be doing something for ME it would be fun too. Who needs people! hahha I have to stop waiting for others to do it with me.
Snow: I'm seriously considering it and I will look in to it more this weekend. If I do it I will share with you all. I really enjoy doing them and I'm oddly oddly fast at it. hehe