Opinions or experiences are welcome!
Going back to see my therapist this week.
I went to the cottage this weekend with my family and I tried to open the door to the topic of my depression and it didn't go very well...with my sister. Not sure if I've mentioned it but my sister is someone I just can't talk to about serious stuff. She just too opinionated, judgemental and HAS to say what she thinks even if you didn't ask for it. So mom asked me how come I finished work early and I told her I had an appointment and she asked if it was my Doctor and I told her no that it was with my Therapist. And my lovely sister's reply was "Hum why? Are you having second thoughts about getting married?" and bursted out laughing. No one else laughed. Who makes a joke like that?? I couldn't believe it... I just took a deep breath and walked away. Later that night, mom and I had a bit of alone time and I opened up to her and it was nice. She didn't judge she just listened and gave me her support. It was nice!
The next day my sister tried to bring the subject back up and asked how I was doing...I didn't really tell her. Honestly, she always asks me why I don't talk to her and the first time I try to open up I get shot down. So that's about it for me trying to talk to her. I have more important shit going on and ME to think about. I don't need her stupid comments and negativity. I can do all that on my own...
I've never personally been medicated, it would probably have been a good idea, but I just couldn't bring myself to do it. Good on you for taking that step if it is what you need
My mum was medicated for a while though, and echoing what snow said, if they don't work you do need to go to the doctor and get them changed. The ones mum was on made her lethargic all day but she couldn't sleep at night. One night she got so overwhelmed she took the remainder of the bottle, said she was just desperate to sleep. Luckily, she was found in time. Now, I'm willing to bet she didn't stop drinking while she was taking the meds either and that couldn't have helped, but yeah... if they aren't working, say something. And stay away from the wine
As for medication, it's worth speaking to your doctor about different options and like others above have said there are loads of different types. It also doesn't have to be a life-time commitment, many people find they can come off them again in the future. There isn't a one size fits all either, so sometimes it does take a bit of playing around with options and doses to get the right one for you. You could always set yourself a target of six weeks of therapy to see if therapy alone helps without the medication with the option of going and discussing medication if you don't see an improvement.
I'm happy that you're getting the help you need. And, you're right about meds, it can't hurt to just try. You never know if it'll work for you if you don't. Also, if you end up not liking them, you can always stop or switch to different ones.
I don't have any other advice just because everyone else has said what I was going to say. I don't want to sound like a broken record.