I have been reading the forum every day but haven't been posting that much... I'm still ok! School is just very busy and life in general is getting stressful. I just need to get something off my chest.

When my SO and I started dating, we were both 17. In a few days, it's our 3 year anniversary... Pretty big deal I think. Now, occasionally, the subject 'future' comes up. I personally am a huge planner and want everything set out as much as I can. He lives by the day and almost couldn't care less. I know that we'll only have 1,5 years together to go, and then there'll be a distance of at least a year again. But after that it gets complicated. He's set on moving back to Minnesota. Basically can't convince him of anything else. I love Minnesota as well, and could totally see myself living there. It's just a strange idea that in 2,5 years I'll be (semi)permanently moving to another country. I really love my family and every time I think about it I get a bit torn. (I know a few of you have made such moves, how was that?)

Then, there's kids. I've always seen myself becoming a mom one day. Doesn't have to be for another 10 years, and of course the circumstances and financial situation etc. need to be right, but my SO really doesn't want them. Then again, we're only 20 and we're talking future here, who knows if he'll change? He said he might want to adopt one but he can't imagine ever having to go through all the trouble of raising a baby. He's absolutely amazing with kids, is a camp counselor and all, and he loves hanging out with them. Just not the category 0-6 basically. Every time this subject comes up it ends in me crying. I love him so so much and I cannot imagine leaving him over this. I also can't imagine myself hoping for the next 10 years and finding out that it'll never happen. I'm worried that I'll regret it for the rest of my life and that I'm just wasting time right now. I just don't know how much I should care... He feels bad that it's so important for me, and I guess adoption would be an option in the middle if it ever comes to that point. I just wonder if he'll change his mind once he gets a job, a house, some animals (he loves those)... And then again, I wonder why I'm even worrying about things that may or may not be an issue 10 years from now.

Thanks for reading... Hope you can maybe share some of your wisdom with me...