So after he got back from the US on Monday, we talked a lot. It was the first time we had an actual face to face conversation since we broke up, which was very nice. I already knew he had a terrible summer, but he told me some more of the details and I understand why he behaved the way he did. Not that it's okay, but I understand. I told him what made me angry and he apologized for everything he did, which I appreciated. So then that Thursday we went to England, with our computers, which was HELL! It was so stressful to know your computer is in a suitcase and they're throwing it around... So we couldn't really relax until we arrived. We met our mutual online friend for the first time at the airport, he was super nice and it was immediately fun. We drove past another online friend who lived on the way to the venue of the conference, and hung out with him for a bit as well. Then it was time to go to the actual event! It was really exciting, the event was held in a football stadium in Coventry and the people who brought their own computer were seated in these huuuuuge halls with desks. I met some of my ex's friends as well and they were really nice too. As expected, I was pretty much one of 5 girls in my hall (of hundreds of people). I met a lot of new people, they all invited me to play games with them and it was an awesome experience! I even met the top American team for a game (Team Fortress 2) who I've been a big fan of, and they signed my placement paper and gave me a t-shirt!
I was obviously super happy about that haha!So on Monday we went home again (and we were supposed to be in class that day...) and things have been kind of hectic immediately. But I wouldn't have wanted it any other way! It was great to hang out with my ex and just be friendly, it just didn't feel right to be mad or angry. After 2 months of no contact I've had enough time to think, and after talking things through together we are okay. I know a lot of you said to stop hanging out with him and cut contact after what he did and said. I tried and considered it... But we've just been best friends for 3,5 years and shared so many great things together. He's just my favorite person to hang out with! And after June, I will likely never see him again my entire life. I'm losing a good friend, I think it's best to make this year fun, otherwise I'll regret it. It might not be a good idea or whatever, but for now it feels right. I've been hanging out with a lot of new people as well and a friend of mine made me use Tinder
So I am talking to a few guys on there and I am coming to terms with the fact that other guys think I'm attractive too haha I know it sounds silly but it's just such a confidence boost. Overall I am feeling great! I just wanted to thank you all so much again for your support these past months, it has been extremely helpful and nice <3
I'm glad to hear you're in a good place mentally/emotionally and are able to be friends. This post was very positive