It's been about a week and a half since the last communication I had with my Pooks. He left for basic training for the army just shy of our being together for three weeks. When we first started talking, he warned me that he was going into the army soon and at the time I said everything would be fine. Never would I thought I would be so happy and fall so quickly for someone. But each day that I don't hear from him gets harder and harder. I think the part that is the roughest is the fact I was hoping to have an address to write to him by now. Supposedly his grandfather was going to send it to me once they found out. But I still haven't heard anything from his family. I've written a few letters but just feel pointless without anywhere to send them. I am trying to wait until the end of the week and then maybe try contacting his mother on Facebook about getting the address. It's just going to be awkward since we've never spoken and our relationship is still relatively new. I just don't want my SO to think I didn't want to write or I moved on while he was gone.

I expressed a fear to him before he left about how I was worried that once he left for basic that he would just disappear from my life and wouldn't give me his address or communicate with me anymore. Even though he reassured me and by his actions before he left, I know that won't be the case. But as each day passes, that fear is slowly growing in the back of my head.

I just needed to vent this out. I just miss him so much and want this summer to be over already.