I post in blogs cause I don't like clogging up the forum with stuff this. Also I don't know what's going on so none of you will either. I don't need guesswork about it. I just need to talk I guess. My SO left on Tuesday. We talked that night. Then he immediately left for a business trip on Wednesday. He texted me off an on throughout the day.

I texted him in the evening saying I understood if he was too busy to call me that night (we are trying to talk every night ), but it'd be nice if he could shoot me a good night text so I know his day went well and he made it back to the hotel. He texted me that he would call me after dinner. I texted him a couple hours later that I was about to go to bed, then that I was going to bed half an hour later. He never called or texted.

Normally when we were CD and apart and this happened he would text me the next morning "oh I passed out I was so tired" or something like that. I haven't even gotten a text all day. I'm trying not to be that crazy girl, so I haven't texted him today. I'm waiting for him to have time to talk since he is on a business trip, but this is stressful. I've had a hard couple of days and all of our texts have been about him. He hasn't asked me about my day once, and that is very unlike him. I don't know. I just felt like there would be more support right here at the beginning and we'd talk a little more at first, not less. I've been trying to cope on my own, doing stuff to boost my mood, but nothing does it quite like talking things out with him and hearing about his day. I just hate this.

My last LDR started out as LD, so we had never really been together. But this feels harder than that, because we are used to spending all this time together and seeing each other. We rarely communicated on the phone when together, and when apart we just did a nightly phone call (at least). I don't know. I'm just stressing. I'm not trying to come up with any excuses for why this could happen, as there are indeed many. I always give benefit of the doubt. I just wish he would give me something. I don't want to keep texting and bug him, but I just want something. UGH.