I made playlist to help me when I get down. It includes such wonders as "Compass" by Lady Antebellum and "Where the Lines Overlap" by Paramore to list a few of my favorites. It has some that relate to him and I ("human" by Christina Perri and "The Only Exception" by Paramore) , and others that relate to the distance (especially "Miles" by Christina Perri, "Many the Miles" by Sara Bareilles, "Wish You Were Here" by Avril Lavigne).

Now that he is in Texas on an extended business trip and not staying with his parents things have gotten better. He has initiated video chats. He is calling me more. We are talking longer in general. I feel like things are finally getting settled. I have gotten in a rhythm of doing stuff on my own to keep me busy. I have been working out when I miss him a lot. I tell myself that those extra muscles, endurance, and flexibility could come in handy when I see him again. I also want to lose a bit of weight and gain a bit of muscle. I've lost a pound, but by the time I've done I should gain at least half the weight back in muscle if not more. I've been eating healthy, and have found ways to fix not eating enough calories.

I really appreciate all the support and understanding I've gotten here. It has really meant a lot.