Well kinda happy. Actually overall happy. I'm rounding 5 months with Charles, my match.com success story bf. He continues to be amazing and do little things to make me happy. Like yesterday when I got to his place to go to sleep he lifted up the blankets. I asked him what he was doing and he said "welcoming you to my bed"...lol. Then he wrapped his limbs around me n we fell asleep spooning. I love him so so much. We made up our own dumb language with Durs for words. Its kinda corny bc we can actually figure out what the other is saying simply with combinations of those words. We never fight, and actually when his family asked us if we were fighting the other day we both laughed it off.

The other day he said that he accidentally opened my google chrome, which is the browser I use on his computer. He found this site and asked me why I was on a website for long distance relationships. Do I believe him that he accidentally opened it, yes, he's given me no reasons to doubt that. I just smiled and told him I joined this forum when I was in a LD relationship and just stuck around after it ended. Then it clicked in his head that this was the forum I talked about all the time. He laughed and said he knew there was a logical explanation for it, bc he trusts me for some reason. Like inexplicably trusts me. I was so touched...I don't know why. I guess it was partially bc of what he told me when we first started dating about how he thinks all relationships have an end point or an expiration date. I think this just stems from his bad relationship history. He really hasn't had many long term relationship, meaning more then three months. Like one 3 year relationship which the girl had the same name as me and apparently just ended up being a bish.

Considering all of that I find it funny that the wedding fever hit him. This guy who hasn't done the committed relationship thing talking about us getting married and having kids. I actually asked him if he'd ever talked about this stuff with his other exes and he said aside from the 3 year one, no not really. He's never been able to see himself with someone for the rest of his life til me. Now that is flattering. Its a little weird bc apparently everyone around us sees this relationship going for a long time too. My parents and friends love him, and they constantly ask me if hes the one or whens the wedding. His parents like me a lot and I caught his mom giving us the 'omg ur so cute' look the other night, like every single time she looked at us. It was funny bc he noticed it too. I get along well with his siblings too. I think this relationship is just a good fit for both of us.

As we wind down from the honeymoon phase of the relationship I really don't feel concerned about fights or him slacking off on affection for me. Basically he's told me if he slacks off to call him on it. I have no problem with that, I'm so stupid honest. I guess even though this relationship is going so well I still get my girl doubts. Like when he doesn't text me, or when he goes off to hang with his friends instead of me. I think I have all that in check though. I just miss him a lot when we aren't together, but I realize we can't spend every waking moment together. I mean i'm basically his live in gf as it is lol. I guess its a relief that he misses me to, even when its only been a few hours since we said good bye.

Being in a CD relationship I have no clue how I ever was in a LDR. I can barely be away from Charles for a day without getting sad from not seeing him. I don't know how I went months at a time. The whole dynamic is so different. He doesn't have to write me letters, or be affectionate via text bc hes so affectionate in person. Any doubts I ever have get erased when I'm with him.

So that's my i'm so stupid in love with my bf blog lol.