Have a visa appointment on Thursday. Must go to the capital because that's where the embassies are.
My mom is traveling with me. She has a visa appointment at the Dutch embassy tomorrow. Everything fine, right?
Well not! I have been experiencing some type of anxiety the last few days.
About a week ago I noticed my mom's index finger and some others involuntarily move slowly while she is resting. We were watching TV when I noticed so. I told her and she didn't pay much attention.
Then I also remebered one night I saw her sleeping at night and saw her legs sort of twitch every 11 secs. I asked her about it and she told me that she feels it and is aware of it.

My mother is my best friend, the one that knows everything about me, is always there for me and I know some day she will not longer be there, but just the thought makes me absolutely sad and I cry.

I haven't been able to sleep the last few days, thinking that something bad could happen to her, that she might develop parkinson and how this could be so terrible and sad not just for her.
If I get the visa, I will be moving to my SO for 6 months. However, for some reason I'm afraid of leaving my mom alone.
My parents are divorced and she doesn't have a cleaning lady anymore -to keeps her company-.
I'm also afraid of how the long flight to visit my brother in the Netherlands could make her feel uncomfortable. Then the way back all by herself.

I haven't been able to sleep, I'm constantly overthinking, my period is delayed because of the stress and my face is a mess. ;-(

ETA: my mom is turning 59 next month and she has arthrosis in one of her hands.

I feel like crying and I wish my SO was here