We got off on the wrong foot yesterday, because I was busy fixing my computer that I had finally gotten back after 5 months of waiting. I did not ignore any of your messages and if I could have taken a screenshot, I would have been able to prove to you that I didn't get them until you facepalmed at me, but I apologize for not responding to your hey a couple days ago. I was set to busy, because I was doing something with charley that required our full attention, so the only people we respond to is siblings in case of an emergency, which you don't know, so I can see how you could have felt ignored.
The thing is, I am resentful towards you for the way you treated me ever since I left CvG 2 years ago with charley, hammond, danny and hellspawn up until recently. You got mad that people ignore you now that you're not wearing the tag, throwing a *facepalm* at me, which is just absolutely disrespectful, when you even admitted to doing it yourself with a joke, A JOKE, laughing in my face, saying that you might not always answer to my messages, but you always read them. You thought this would calm me down, but it actually hurt, because I believe in the good in people and if you didn't get my messages, oh well, steam bugs out on me all the time, so fine, but reading my messages and ignoring me on purpose was a knife to my gut.
And now you throw a fit because I didn't respond to you twice? Even though once you had already talked to charley so I figured you knew what was up. Then you try making me feel like shit for playing the ONLY game I am able to play on my laptop? The only game that doesn't ALWAYS make my laptop overheat? AND because we didn't join the ZPS community night? I got my computer back that day and I figured if I could fix it before the community night, I could play it on it, but since it was in German, charley couldn't help and I had to work with my brother through pictures sent on whatsapp and talking through teamspeak, so don't even try to make me feel like it was my fault there was only 6 people at the community night, didn't you always claim you could fill the server within minutes if you wanted to, did you not want to?
You call yourself my brother, but the only time you talked to me within the past 2 years was if you wanted something from me, completely ignoring any messages of things I needed from you, how is that being a brother, how is that being a friend? You disappeared for months when I needed you the most and then you threw problems into my face just like I thought you would, because you are always more important than me. And not only this, as soon as the issue was talked over, you stopped responding so I couldn't even bring on the conversation. It got to the point, where charley and I even joked between each other, every time you messaged one of us, "oh what does dogbert want again?", because this is literally what happened every single time. It got so bad, I had to ask your girlfriend if you are mad at me, because you never responded to my messages anymore, but you weren't, you just ignored me, because you could.
So, don't give me shit for not responding to you once in all the 4 years we have known each other and let me play whatever the hell I want. I am so sick of your attitude and this is also the reason why none of the owners wanted to help you, because you demand and demand but never ever thank anyone for going out of their way to meet your demands, never giving back anything. Never even seeing that people want to help you if they didn't do it exactly at the time you wanted it, because you know, as well as I, that it was not healie's or crazy's fault project Z failed, it was yours, not because you left CvG, but because you didn't do it when we had an active player base, you pushed it aside for one and a half years and then wondered why no one cared. Why? Because you pump people up, they want to help you, they push their issues aside to make your things happen and then you drop them down, tell them to wait indefinitely until one day you decide "today is the day" but until then no one gives a crap anymore, we're not marionettes. That's why people will help me if I need something, because unlike you, I help everyone and don't treat them like my personal slaves, I take their help in their time.

Of course I can't tell you all of this to your face, because you'd snap and probably break up with your wonderful girlfriend that you mistreat so badly all the time, so I keep it to myself (and post it here) to get it off my mind, so I don't accidentally spill it onto my husband, who would tear you a new one for treating me like crap for so long.

I wish though you could see how you treat other people and maybe then you could understand why people avoid you.