There really isn't any general theme to this blog, I just...I really needed to get it out I guess. I desperately miss my SO and I came across some leftover bubble bath that we had used during our last visit and just inhaling the scent dropped me straight into memories so realistic when I opened my eyes I could have sworn he was going to be standing there next to me. Boy was that a real kick in the teeth, now I can't stop myself from just sitting here smelling it, I've pulled up some things I had almost forgotten, I'm glad I can remember them now, I guess.

I don't know when I'm going to see him again our visit that had been planned for right after my graduation is now dust, with all the turmoil and money problems cropping up I'll be lucky if I see him at all before I start school, and then who knows, if things don't go well in the job hunt he could very well end up in the Navy. I need to see him, I do but I just don't know how I can manage to pull at least 500 bucks outta my ass, god it's been so long I can't remember the last time I actually bought something for myself before all the crazy saving for visits started, 2 years I guess. I just can't bring myself to spend money on anything when I know that what I want most is enough money for a plane ticket.

I want to see him now more than ever though, I mean the next time we meet I'll actually be able to kiss him, god how long I've dreamed of doing that, and let me tell you, it's hard trying to not kiss a person you're so madly in love with when they're so close to you, especially when they're extremely good looking

Why can't money just fall from the sky? Grrr.