Okay well all of my friends and I have been talking about taking an all girls road trip to Disneyland after graduating as a last hurrah before we get shipped off to college since the beginning of senior year. The entire year was spent, I thought, totally unsure of plans and whenever I asked I was always told that it probably wasn't going to happen, I was okay with that, I know life gets in the way of plans whatever, cool. Today I went to one of my friends grad parties and all they talked about was going to Disneyland tomorrow and I had to sit there the entire time biting my tongue. I mean cmon, what the hell, so you can all take your boyfriends and I'm not even invited? After the party was over I pulled one of said friends to the side and asked what was up with that and apparently one of the group thought that I shouldn't be invited because my SO wasn't here and I needed to "save my money for visits" honestly she's been against my relationship for ages now and now that I think about it she was the one planning this thing and the only one I asked about it, I kinda feel like she did it on purpose I mean I would have gladly paid for this trip if I had been invited and I don't understand when this trip became about going with boyfriends and not us girls who have been friends since elementary school for crying out loud!

God I'm so pissed, why does everyone assume just because my SO isn't around that I never want to hang out with anyone? Every time they've asked me out I went gladly, and only brought up my SO when I was asked about him, (although I admit they asked to hang out less and less) honestly it's times like these I start resenting my SO even when it's my friends that are causing this and not him, but ever since he came around my friends act like I don't exist and it seriously hurts my feelings I mean I've been friends with them since we were 6, we've been through everything together and now they never want to hang out because I have a boyfriend that's not even really in the picture that makes no sense to me what so ever. *sighs* I resent that the only person I really ever talk to now is my SO, I love him to death sure but I miss hanging out with my friends, I always feel so awkward around them now and it never used to be like that...why can't people understand that just because my SO isn't around that I'm not glued to my phone or computer, I still like being around friends and having a good time.