So I've been in my college dorm for a little over 2 months now and honestly I haven't made a single friend here, most of the people are upperclassmen and I take classes at a different school so it's like the friends I made there are around my dorm. My roommate already had friends here when she moved in so I didn't even get the whole "oh we're both alone scared little freshman" bonding thing not to mention she has no intentions of trying to get to know me even when I put in the effort. (which is difficult because I'm super introverted).

Anyway, for the past 2 months I hadn't really noticed how lonely I was because there was just so much school work and adjusting to a new place. But last night I got to hang out with my best friends in the whole wide world and I realize now how alone I feel. The only time I talk to someone is either during my classes or when my SO calls at night, other than that I live my life in silence. There's no fun in my life either, I get up, go to school, come home, do homework, eat dinner, watch tv, and then go to sleep. It's like a never ending boring cycle. Not to mention I have to eat alone here because I have no friends and this is the first time I've ever eaten alone in a school setting, ever. It honestly stresses me out to the point I'd rather not even eat. And I'd hang out with my friends more, except they're super busy with their classes and I live half an hour away so getting to me is just sometimes not worth the effort, nor do I have a car so I have no way to get to them.


Ugh this just sucks, I hate being alone and being away from my SO on a college campus full of lovey dovey couples everywhere makes it worse.