I'm with a man that seems too good to be true.. and as usual, i'm over thinking. I can't help but question if what he says to me is the truth or just what I want to hear. We fell for each other HARD. I've never connected with someone on such a level as my current SO. It is as if I had finally met my soul mate.. the man who tames my "sassy black woman" attitude with love rather than firing back, the man who can handle my abrupt shifts in mood from ecstatic to quite depressed, the man who goes along with the crazy weird stuff I say.. the man who treats me how I am supposed to be treated. We fell for each other so quickly. It was as if the love between us was a volcano and now it's beginning to simmer down --- I think the honeymoon phase for me is disappearing just as quickly as it started.

But this is most likely my own fault because I think too much. My SO virtually does nothing wrong.. and for some reason this scares me. I know why.. it's because if he hurt me i'd be utterly heartbroken. I'm subconsciously preparing for these heartbreak moments.

I know that I need to find a way to get back to selfless / worryless loving before I create a self-fulfilling prophecy. I need to enjoy this man while it's good rather than be anxious about the potential bad.

I've gotta get these feet warm again. I do...