Hey guys. So here's a little update about what's been going on with me lately.

SO: If any of you remember, about a month ago I made that forum post about how bad our communication has been. Well since then I finally got sit down and talk with him about it and I am really glad I did. Our relationship seems to have improved and gotten stronger since then. On our 8 months anniversary we texted all night, even though he was at work which was awesome He even begged me to stay up and wait for him to come home so we can Skype, even though I was so sleepy. But since he was paying so much attention to me I thought it would be alright to reward him hehe But seriously it was a great night. He even remembered our 8 months and told me that his feelings haven't changed one bit since he confessed to me. Also this may seem kinda small but it was a big thing for me. He told me "I love you" first to me when we ended our call. I haven't heard that from him in months. It made me so happy knowing that he is still very interested in me and that he cares. It was nice

The sucky part is that summer is his busy season and his job pretty much owns him at this point, so there will be no possibility of any visits this summer whatsoever I asked him if it was possible for me to be his date for his partner's wedding in August, but apparently he already rsvp'd about 2 months ago. Ah well I would have felt bad for horning in on this wedding anyway, so that's no big deal. I have no clue when I'll get to meet him in person, but at least our communication has gotten better and we are both still planning on how the hell we are gonna meet each other.

Life in general: My life outside the relationship though has gotten me pretty stressed out. If anything I am worried about my future more than ever. I have just 2 more required courses in order to graduate this December. One of them is my practicum and I gotta intern somewhere. Well I applied to this one place and basically gambled everything on me getting this internship there, and well I don't think I got it. They were supposed to call me today and they didn't so I guess I didn't get it.

Which leaves me wondering what the hell am I gonna do? I don't know if I could apply anywhere else, because I waited to long and was such an idiot for thinking that I would get in. It would suck big time if I couldn't graduate because of one stupid class that I really need. I'm really freaking out now. All I want in life right now is to graduate on time. I hate that for everything that I want to do in life it always takes me longer compared to other people. Everything is just so frustrating right now.

The only thing that really keeps me happy and sane right now is my job. I really do love my job and my coworkers are just an amazing group of people that I have really bonded with. Lately I have been hanging out with my coworker Stephanie almost everyday and I actually feel happy being around her. It sucks that she's gonna be moving soon. I'm gonna miss her and her crazy cats lol. I love those guys.

Anyway I do love my job, but I don't wanna work there forever. I want a real job where I make more than minimum wage so I don't have to rely on my SO to take care of me. Is that really so much to ask for? Apparently yes it is.

Well that's just about it. Sorry this was so long. I just have a lot going on right now, and I was just complaining about all of this life BS to my SO just now, but he had to go to work. I felt incomplete so well I wrote everything down on here lol.