My SO ended the break yesterday. I felt relieved, but also other things.
I wonder what has changed. I wonder what this means from now on. What now?
He said that the break was very beneficial for him, so I am glad that I was strong enough to push for it. It was good for me too.
I guess this means that we can observe our anniversary on this upcoming Wednesday after all. He brought up what we're doing for that which was surprising because he's never cared before and because I was prepared to skip over it (since the break was supposed to be for a month). Honestly, he just moved and is settling in and I have a lot of school assignments going on right now... So for such short notice, it looks like we won't be doing anything.
This will be our 5th year anniversary; I've never experienced 5 years in a romantic relationship and I always envisioned it as something that me and my guy would make a big deal about. I won't be making a big deal about it and I'm okay with that. Funny how things work out.
I appreciate this forum all the time because I have no where else to turn for support. My close friends were upset that we took a break and they don't understand why I'm still with him. Aside from that, there is a lot of great advice and many ideas on this website. I think that if we both work hard that we can make it.
I mean, it was a nice surprise that he didn't need a whole month as originally planned to figure things out. It was really nice hearing that he's very sure about us, that he's feeling much closer to how it was in the beginning, and that he's ready to get his girlfriend back. I wish I had nice things to say too... It's not that I didn't feel nice things for him but I guess I was just in so much shock.
We decided that we're only going to speak on the phone twice a week. It was his suggestion and I think it's because he hopes it will bring about more conversation between us. When we talk everyday (plus my daily emails) I really don't have anything new to bring up and I don't always have feedback either when he's talking about his hobbies. We'll see how that goes.
And that is pretty much all for now.