I do love it when my carefully made plans are messed up with.

Remember when I said that I had two possible visits planned in November, one a weekend trip to Germany and the other a few days later to Finland for my brother-in-law's wedding?

Well, the Germany trip is still on, but it's so short I don't even care that much about it at this point.

The wedding, though, is kinda up in the air. This week Timo told me that it might be postponed for now because Tommi and Jaana don't think they have enough money for it right now (I can understand that, they just made some pretty big house renovations this summer and that stuff cost in Finland, plus they have a toddler). So, if the wedding is put off til next year, that meant to me that I could fuse my two trips together. I could go to Germany, then fly back to Finland together with Timo and spend a few days there, with the family. It was a lovely plan, until I realized that it was not possible. The only flight from Frankfurt to my hometown with Lufthansa (for which I had already bought the ticket) leaves at 9:35 am, while the first flight from Helsinki to Frankfurt lands at 9:15. Impossible to make that connection, and I absolutely don't want to spend the night in Frankfurt alone. So, scratch those plans.

I was in the process of convincing myself that it would be better to go to Finland first and then back to Germany for the festival (which means I'd see Timo earlier than planned, but also means I get less time in Finland because I'm not sure I can get time off work at the beginning of the month) when I heard another version of events.

Apparently my mother-in-law offered to help pay for the wedding, which is very sweet of her. Jaana is not the kind of person to accept hand-outs, though, so she is very reluctant and hasn't given her an answer yet. I have no idea what the answer will be, or when we will have it, in the meantime plane tickets are getting more and more expensive and I don't know anymore that I can travel twice with so little time in between visits, because last time I did that my parents freaked out. So I'm not too hopeful I can attend the wedding if it does happen on Tommi's birthday as was the initial plan (Nov 29)

Another thought: say they do postpone the wedding, yesterday I had the lovely idea that make I could spend Christmas in Finland for the first time ever. It kept me happy all day long. I would travel one month after my weekend in Germany, which is not suspicious at all, and I would get to spend Timo's birthday with him, too. And we even discussed that maybe we'd make the visit a surprise to the family. And then I remembered that my sister's wedding might very well take place around Christmas. I am trying to get my family to postpone it a bit, not because of my travel plans, but because nobody ever planned a wedding in three-fucking-months! My mother has been such a slacker about even agreeing with my sister's MIL about a fucking date, and we haven't done ANYTHING. Not looked for a venue, which you have to book several months in advance, not started on my sister's wedding outfits, not even decided what kind of a party we're going to have. But nobody listens to me. I'm like Cassandra, always foretelling disasters which ALWAYS FUCKING HAPPEN, but nobody listens to me. So the wedding really should take place in January or even better, February, but nope. Apparently they have their minds set on December, so I can forget about my Finnish Christmas. The thing is, I have no idea when they're going to set the date. Possibly in December, two weeks before the event itself.

Anyway, I'm gutted. I want to cry all the time, but that's probably also PMS.

Don't even know what else to talk about, so I'll just leave it at that.