So I didn't really think that when I left here, that I would fd myself coming back, but I am and I am so happy. I'll admit, I missed this community as everyone is so helpful and kind-not too mention opinionated! Lol<which is a good thing. So upon my coming back I believe this calls for an update of my life. Here goes:

WORK:
So work just sucks. We got two new managers and they're so rude and just nothing like my previous managers. I'm pretty much gonna look for another job while I work through the horrid holiday retail season but we'll see.

SCHOOL:
Just had my first semester of college! With sixteen credits and I passed them all! I couldn't be happier with that. I'm also so happy that I took a sign language class, I really loved it. Philosophy was by far my favorite though because in what other class can you seriously say "Why should we care?" and have the teacher go on for.ten minutes on why my question an way of.thinking is actually quite valid. Man that class was awesome. Next semester I have trigonometry, english, and a history class. I think history will probably be my favorite honestly. It is prehistory to the 1500s, yay! =)

ROMANCE:
So....before I met my ex I was friends, and only friends with this guy that I met on a website. I immediately felt drawn to this friend I wasn't sure what it was but we both felt it. I was afraid though, I didn't really want this guy, this amazing guy to have to wait for me,,to have to overcome such an obstacle as distance. I also held back my feelings for a while due to the fact that I just wanted to make sure they were real, that they really were love and not infatuation or lust or something. Then I met my ex and I fell for him, hard. As I realize niw though, I wasn't treated as well as I should've been, regardless if I gave him leeway due to his job. His words meant a lot to me because I didn't always hear from him that I forgot how much I usually treasure actions and showing me that you care. I'm not.talking extravagant things, but really simple ones. Like making time for me, and wanting to skype and stuff. Now fast forward to the end of that "relationship" and my friend ends up coming back into my life. I wasn't really expecting to hear from him again, but it was a lovely surprise. We talk just like we did becore he left for a couple weeks and then we exchange numbers and have been texting ever since. Then we decided that we should skype voice call and we did and it was so cute and awkward but just felt right. Now we haven't video called yet, his internet really sucks at home, but we are definetly gonna try. Fast forward to this last week, I finally put my real feelings on the line and told him I loved him and that I think I have for a while, and he said he has loved me since a.couple months after we originally met. I was like, "when were you gonna tell me?!" lol One thing I don't ever do is put my feelings out there first, I usually prefer to wait until the guy does it, but once I finally figured out exactly what the feelings were, I just couldn't deny it anymore. I like to be honest and straightforward. This guy was there for me when no one else was; when everyone acted like I was given a death sentence he was my positivity and calmed my worries. He still does, every time I actually talk to him, he calms my worries and fears. Like I'm not afraid of anything with him. Honestly, he's amazing, sweet, kind, funny, and so patient with me. He's someone I can always count on to be there for me, which is important because.with my ex, I had to be there for him and this just all makes me happier. He's supportive of me and very positive. Now neither of us like the mikage between us, but we don't want to give up either. If I had more money available, I'd be there asap. I have lots of hopes for this, but I'm also trying to reel them in until our video call, he says nothing's going to change, but better to worry and be right then not to worry and be wrong. One more thing, this guy brings out a side of me I've honestly never met before, and I love it! I'm so confident and flirty with him, and just everything I think I'm.supposed to be. Now I can't.put into words exactly what he means to me, but I will say I love him becausr.that's probably as close as I can come with simple words.


Anywho, happy holidays, and I'm glad to be back! =)