Well, as of two days ago I have been blogging on LFAD for an entire year. I believe this would be a good time to look at the things I have accomplished within that year so here goes.

Well, I have had a relationship end and begin again, and no first meets though who knows it may not be long before that changes! I have been working at my place of employment for almost a year as well and have made many friends and many interesting moments working there as well. I have finally gone to college and even somewhat enjoyed it- and made friends! Who knew right?! Hmm, I have taken my 1 year PET scan and had it come back negative- so yay. I have gotten a couple piercings, and am currently thinking on a couple tattoo ideas I would like to get. The most important thing though I have to say, though it has been only a year I have seen myself grow from the timid girl who was afraid to live her life when she graduated to the girl who is strong taking life by the horns, and overall just a better woman than I have ever sought myself to be. I am always intrigued by new places, people, things and ideas- always learning and trying to grasp the concepts of life. That is why I find it amazing, not just how I have changed in the past year, because that is not so drastic but rather seems like I am fine-tuning what I made of myself the year after high school. A lot of things have changed, my friends, my ways of thinking, and even the way I think of myself. I have become more confident in who I am and what I want from life and that makes me happy.

Any who, I feel as though I am done with reflecting on the past year- I'd rather talk about the now than dwell on the past.

So yesterday a good friend of mine and I were discussing a smorgasboard of things that had happened within the last couple months in our lives because we had not been able to get the chance to spend any time with each other in that long and such and one of the things she brought up is PTSD. Now yes, my SO has PTSD and someone my friend knows has had PTSD due to the military as well so we were speaking from a more militarialistic aspect of PTSD. She got me thinking though. This all has to be addressed sometime, my SO and I do need to have a discussion that revolves around it. Just little things like does he feel the help he is getting is actually helping, and such. More of an assessment I suppose you could call it? That also brings to the forefront his alcoholic tendencies. He likes beer, like any 21 year old would, and I do not know how he is about it now but he did drink a bit when we were first together. Now I love him to pieces and I know that maybe there are other factors leaning into this problem and such, but what I guess for-lack-of-a-better-word bothers me is that I do not know if he has cut down on the drinking, or exactly what kind of treatment, if any, he is seeking for his PTSD and that worries me like it would worry any SO. I plan on reading up on PTSD, again specifically military caused. Such as treatments and such. Next time we talk I suppose I will bring this up, though I would rather do it in person. My friend brought it up because she does not want to see me hurt, and granted my SO only really has nightterrors and gets jumpy around unexpected noises, this is still a huge issue to be thought about and to me I dislike seeing anyone suffering and to know he suffers with this problem makes me upset like I am sure it would upset anyone. I feel as though I am going around in circles talking about this lol I suppose that is because my mind is a bit perplexed and jumbled on this specific topic other than it knows that something has to be set in place about it so I am somewhat typing this just for my mind and self to run about it for a while. So I will just stop there. I will do some research, and just keep coming back to the idea I suppose. I want this covered so that it is not a huge issue in the future, it's not like he scares me or anything, it's just I know he cannot do this on his own as he has been trying to. Once I talk to him and see what kind of help he getting about it, I'll know what to do furthermore with this all.

Thanks for reading. Until Next Time.