All he keeps saying is that he "has something in mind/planned". -_- I realllllllllllly want to know what it is. I know he's supposed to be getting a good chunk of money from being away for training and he gets paid by the state for his job. So he'll be "double dipping", and he keeps saying that to me.

On one hand, it would be awesome to get something from him (he always feel bad because he never has the money to get me anything, not that I really care), but on the other hand, I really don't want him spending money on me because he should really save it for his debts/start saving money in general. I've made it very clear to him that he should save that money, or at least most of it, and I have told him countless times that I don't want anything for my birthday.

If anything, I told him I wanted to go to the Philadelphia Zoo and/or the Adventure Aquarium in Camden and that was it. Maybe a nice dinner. I don't know. I've never been to a "nice" restaurant before, as in...one where I would have to wear a dress and nice heels to. When I first told him that, when we first started dating, he was shocked. His response was, "You've never been to a nice restaurant before?!! Your ex never took you??!!!" And I was like, "No, not really. He never wanted to go and he didn't have the money because I paid for everything..." Plus, my ex wasn't that type of guy. He was never romantic.

So I guess, either a nice dinner or the Zoo/Aquarium is something I'd be fine with, if he did want to spend money on me. If not, I'm content just watching a movie with him and going out to Olive Garden. That's what we did last year and I didn't mind. I'd rather just be with him, which, thankfully he has a 4 day weekend that weekend of my birthday and off on my actual birthday.

Sometimes I think it'd be nice to get a promise ring from him, but then I'm like, "I really don't want him to spend that kind of money."

Plus, I've been pretty pessimistic about the whole thing, like I do for every holiday, because I don't want to get my hopes up. I did that with my ex and I got let down every time. I know my SO is different, but I still don't want to make a big deal about those sort of things, especially knowing he doesn't have the money and I always feel bad when he spends money on me to begin with. And, sometimes my SO talks a lot. -_- Although, this time he might be serious because he keeps asking me if he's off around my birthday and keeps making sure that he's off, so I don't know. He's being mysterious.